[crazybeautifullife]

Im new here, and just in the last couple years figured out whats been wrong with me all my life. Im bipolar 1 and Im hating it. Now that Ive been diagnosed what do I do. I dont take meds am not seeing a doc.. and IM IN A HORRIBLE MANIC EPISODE.. only not feeling good at all. For almost a week i feel like im going to explode, ok i have been exploding. I cant think, my mind is going 100mph, confused, angry with crazy thoughts about hurting people I love for just walking in the room or speaking to me. I cant get away from myself, I just want it to stop. I dont want to want to hurt everyone. How do I ease this feeling without drugs and without hurting my family.. self distruction is what i know best, I wanna learn something new!

[Victoria'smom]

Please go for a long, long run until your to tired to run.

[manicminer]

THe best way to learn is to find a good teacher. And the best teacher in this situation would be a licensed therapist or psychologist. Someone that has studied mental health issues and knows the techniques for dealing with them properly.

You have come to a place where the other people here can offer you a lot of good advice from our own experiences, but for help for your specific needs, its best to seek professional help.

Its a hard thing to do. It sure was a tough pill to swallow for me, but it saved my life.

[hamster-bamster]

I would get a prescription for Zyprexa, take it for three to five days, seven max, and then go back to your preferred state of being without meds. It is the simplest solution.

[nannywoofwoof]

Hi I read your post and I know what you are going through. I have fought for years against doing harm to those that I love. It's not you that wants to harm them, it's the mania. I feel for you. It's terrifying and if you are like me, you may be afraid to tell anyone the truth of what you are experiencing. Please go and speak to a Dr or close family member that you trust.
Help is out there. Good luck.
Keep posting. Nannywoofwoof