So emotional!

I've been really reacting emotionally to events in my life lately. The slightest thing- slow traffic, slow computer, can make me exceptionally angry, to the point where I start screaming and cursing. Im also very on edge and anxious; can't stop thinking about what will happen if I don't get into med school, what if I lose my ability to focus and never accomplish anything, what if I get into a car crash and die... And also, yesterday more than today...elation. I went to visit my old high school, and I felt ready to conquer the world. Big smile, talking fast, all because I got to see a few old teachers!

Cognitively, I'm slowed down. I keep making stupid, absent-minded mistakes- like driving in the bus lane and almost getting hit by an oncoming bus! The distractedness just fuels the irritability and anxiety.

Anyone know why I'm so emotional? Could it be the geodon I started taking a few days ago? Thanks

Sounds "normal" in my world, but that isn't really normal.

Geodon makes some people jittery. Could be some hypo coming on - try not to panic. You are likely going to make it into med school. You are so smart, and look how far you've made it already, despite the roadblocks.

Worried about car crash - drive slower, say a prayer, put a blue energy bubble of light around your car. That's the sort of thing I do to deal when I get panicky and it helps.

Keep fighting, I'm cheering for you.

You sound like me on a normal day, too.

That's how I am during an up swing. I get super super irritable and rushed and I curse at everything. I spend hours obsessing over "what ifs".

hang in there.

I took an extra 2.5 mg of Zyprexa the past few nights, and now I feel better. I'm a little shaken, because I actually did hit another car yesterday while driving; no damage done, thankfully. But I was so upset about hitting the car that I didn't think to pull over and apologize to the person whose car I hit. So now I'm terrified that he's going to sue me or something.