been talking to someone via email about stuff- he emailed me about employment and stuff, and i did what i usually do.. spiral off in to everything wrong with me..

i feel like that lyric in demmie lovato sometimes- you know her song heart attack and she sings about when ever you try to be yourself, it's more like a cry for help... that's how i feel.

bleh..... not again

[comicgeek007]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

been talking to someone via email about stuff- he emailed me about employment and stuff, and i did what i usually do.. spiral off in to everything wrong with me..

i feel like that lyric in demmie lovato sometimes- you know her song heart attack and she sings about when ever you try to be yourself, it's more like a cry for help... that's how i feel.

bleh..... not again

I've done this before. Over email, as well.

[bluewave7]

I did this in person after church. I ranted to the pastors about not letting a female be a priest at their church. They did some counselling with me which was helpful. However, one of the pastors said bipolar was a double headed demon and that I had a legion of demons attached to me. I was frightened and allowed them to do an exorcism on me. I wound up in the psyche ward the day after. Now they won't let me volunteer in the nursery or do the prayer walks. Everytime I sign up to volunteer they never call me. I have stopped going to this church. They think I'm a freak. They are ignorant and uneducated and therefore I have no resentments against them. They tried something and it was a fiasco. I was a new Christian too so I didn't know any better...that's my ignorance.

I have left the Christian religion for many reasons and now pray to the Goddess who is unconditionally loving and accepting of me.

Once the church found out I went to the psyche ward they alienated me. I am glad of the experience because I learned from it and I will never follow Christianity again. And that is not all due to this one church experience....but after reading the entire bible I knew this religion was not right for me.

So I know how it feels to lose people due to bipolar. I wait to feel them out before I tell them. I also wait a day to send an email or make a phone call if I'm not feeling well. Hugs to you!

[BlueInanna]

I'm sorry Shattered. I think I totally scare people off too. But you haven't scared me off!

[bluemountains]

Originally Posted by bluewave7

I did this in person after church. I ranted to the pastors about not letting a female be a priest at their church. They did some counselling with me which was helpful. However, one of the pastors said bipolar was a double headed demon and that I had a legion of demons attached to me. I was frightened and allowed them to do an exorcism on me. I wound up in the psyche ward the day after. Now they won't let me volunteer in the nursery or do the prayer walks. Everytime I sign up to volunteer they never call me. I have stopped going to this church. They think I'm a freak. They are ignorant and uneducated and therefore I have no resentments against them. They tried something and it was a fiasco. I was a new Christian too so I didn't know any better...that's my ignorance.

I have left the Christian religion for many reasons and now pray to the Goddess who is unconditionally loving and accepting of me.

Once the church found out I went to the psyche ward they alienated me. I am glad of the experience because I learned from it and I will never follow Christianity again. And that is not all due to this one church experience....but after reading the entire bible I knew this religion was not right for me.

So I know how it feels to lose people due to bipolar. I wait to feel them out before I tell them. I also wait a day to send an email or make a phone call if I'm not feeling well. Hugs to you!

Wow, it's funny how different churches embrace Christianity! My female paster, my friend, occasionally goes out drinking with us. We have openly gay couples who are members. No one is ever condemned or chastised for who they are. Most of my church friends know that I have bp. Each year we sponsor a team that runs a 5k that supports research in mental health. I'm glad I am not in the land of taboo!

[intergalactictraveler]

Is there a dating site for people with mood disorders? If not, there should be. It's true that once you tell someone you're bipolar or have schizophrenia, PTSD or some other psych illness, they might act like they understand but they've already got their hand on the doorknob and one foot out the door. And I'm married but my wife has been in denial about my illness for 21 years.

[Mack2]

I have the complete opposite effect, when I start talking about myself or my bipolar (trying to put them off) men seem to think its a challenge to try to hit on me. I am totally NEVER having another man in my life. I am too high maintenance, along with OCD and despite making it very clear from the start, I just can't get rid of them quick enough.

[BlackPup]

shattered
I know what you mean. Sometimes I think it's good to scare people off early rather than becoming friends with them and then scaring them off.

[faerie_moon_x]

I scare people away all the time. I've been doing it since I was a kid. In fact, I'm pretty sure I was bullied so bad because I was such a strange person...

But, when did this happen? Maybe he's just busy. Give it a couple of days and maybe you'll be surprised?

[wotchermuggle]

Originally Posted by bluewave7

I did this in person after church. I ranted to the pastors about not letting a female be a priest at their church. They did some counselling with me which was helpful. However, one of the pastors said bipolar was a double headed demon and that I had a legion of demons attached to me. I was frightened and allowed them to do an exorcism on me. I wound up in the psyche ward the day after. Now they won't let me volunteer in the nursery or do the prayer walks. Everytime I sign up to volunteer they never call me. I have stopped going to this church. They think I'm a freak. They are ignorant and uneducated and therefore I have no resentments against them. They tried something and it was a fiasco. I was a new Christian too so I didn't know any better...that's my ignorance.

I have left the Christian religion for many reasons and now pray to the Goddess who is unconditionally loving and accepting of me.

Once the church found out I went to the psyche ward they alienated me. I am glad of the experience because I learned from it and I will never follow Christianity again. And that is not all due to this one church experience....but after reading the entire bible I knew this religion was not right for me.

So I know how it feels to lose people due to bipolar. I wait to feel them out before I tell them. I also wait a day to send an email or make a phone call if I'm not feeling well. Hugs to you!

I'm not trying to convert you or anything, but seriously, there are Christians who are not like what you described. That said, I would never tell anyone at my church about my mental-ness because I don't think anyone can really understand this stuff unless you've gone through it yourself. It's so sad that this stuff still happens. I'm glad you found peace.

[catsrhelm]

I suspect that my bi-polar scares my husband away from me. Too bad he's too afraid to talk about it.

[intergalactictraveler]

catsrhelm,

My wife, who probably has BPD, along with alcohol addiction, said to me, in one of her lunatic rants, "You get so angry, you might kill me!" In front of my psychiatrist, she dismissed her fit of hysteria as nothing. I've never hit her, physically threatened her nor any other woman I've been with before I met her. I'm not even suicidal, just miserable. Ain't life grand.