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I just did...I promised to keep it to just two threads and I will try too and I'm sure I will be forced to abstain from expression...albeit gently when the time comes ...actually I am proud of myself for ditching my plan and going freelance silly.
I will try and make it real quick and not too interfering with the natural and un-natural process of these pages and please indulge in the half and half sincerity and cynicism... it likely took me 4 years to discover truth....and I was only born 3 minutes before that!... they made me do it!...it wasn't me they made me do it...they fed me they clothed me they instructed me they took me here and there I followed I watched I said all along! it's ok! ...and curiously it was something... something it was! ...indeed! and here I am and seriously people I try so hard to examine regular ways of explaining things so many ideas assault me I'm captivated and combusted by the impossible and burning alive in my own thoughts... I really thought...HAHA funny "thought"... that I could be something that I am not...and that's the perfection of the bipolar mistake!...call it something nicer if you want...it's the truth nothin' halfassed!... I experience the entire holy hell and heaven of it and fall to my death every time! BUT...if that was true I would be a ghost right and wrong maybe I am and maybe you are too... but each experience presents me with new fears and I not only want to lie about it to myself but I seriously need to lie about it to myself and that's just to fkng! validate myself! nobody else can do this for me and I have to break apart from the things that really hurt... I can recover from a lot of things but somethings are designed to motivate I can only lie so much...for we all have pain that's incurable. |
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