Can I have a break from life, right?

Sooooo...

it's been bit rough for me lately. Going to few interviews (one during the major floods in Prague... cause everytime Prague's under water, destiny needs to send Venus a reason she absolutely has to go to Prague), but nothing come of it. I am just learning about fancy and not fancy part of Prague...

So I have been bit in whatever mode. Going to random trips to distract (only to find out that the town I spend so many years in - Brno... may have good universities, but is really eastern european hellhole hit by economic crisis. Or maybe some towns don't mix with mood altering substances).
Going to meadows to collect herbs (found lots of st john's wort ) and regretting why didn't I study herbalism... Maybe I can do that still. THinking.
I am doing lots of village stuff, canning fruits and baking...
reconnecting with old friends...
studying homeopathy

........... and neglecting my job hunting part. Of course I feel guilty, but the hell, it's summer. I itch to go down to Balkans... since I kinda can't do that now... maybe I can have my holiday with herbs and learning stuff and maybe even not watching news of czech political scene...
Maybe I can have a break, right? I been trying and it's wearing me down. Maybe I can just... do some soul searching right now, right? Since there's no obligations. Maybe miracle will happen.

I've been all over moodwise lately, friends started to notice. Not sure where to go next. I hate being stuck. Stastically I am screwed (so maybe stopping watching economic news for a while might help too). Maybe since I can't afford to party like it's 1999, I can live like capitalism thing never happened... and enjoy the village life for now. Maybe my last chance to slow down before working till death or 68 depends what happens first.

Glory to heroes!

HATEFREE CULTURE

A break from life sound heavenly.

Nothing wrong with taking a timeout to just be.
We are humanBEings after all, but we behave far more like humandoings.

So sorry things have been rough, I hope the village life centres you and provides the reprieve you need Venus.

Umm heck yeah!! Is there a better time to do some searching, then where you are at right now. If the searching is calling then I can't see why you wouldn't call back.

Yeah working for 68 years, umm yuck. But in that 68 years you better set some time aside for living.
Don't feel guilty, just live for a little while. You have worked hard and maybe it is time for a little rest from work.

Think about what companies know about employees and productivity. They know that giving employees rest time boosts productivity. Some companies give their staff " nap time" durring the day. Haha yeah probably not many and I haven't worked for one. But they do now rest boosts ability to be more productive. You can only work so much before burning out. Can't work all the time.

Just enjoy life cause you know that you will be spending majority of time working. If you have the time right now, just let it the guilt and worry go. I'm sure it will be right where you left it when summer is over and you can pick it up then. Or not. But it's not gonna run away and I really doubt that you will not get back on that train after summer to chase your other aspirations.

Just maybe that will settle the mood down and let you enjoy this time. The village life sounds like it's had lot of value in it, probably worth experiencing. We were not born and given life just to work, don't want to miss out on the times to fully embrace living.

Statistics... we don't have to talk about stats... anyone can break a statistic..it's just numbers and predictions. Turn off the economic news for now maybe, but don't let economics dictate wether you are screwed or not. You can decide that one. There are plenty of people who bypassed being a statistic and so what if it was even 10% of of them ( I am just pulling that number from air ) but why not be one of that 10%.

Maybe it's not a break from life, seems like a break into fully living.

Ad Infinitum

This living, this living, this living..was always a project of mine

Thanks both of you.

I just feel bit guilty and bad about the fact that I don't have a career yet... and that I still don't know what the hell I want. Bohemians is cute for a while, but do I want to live my life going from one thing to another? Why do I feel need to discover and try things and refuse to settle on something?

It feels like I am wastng my potential. Maybe I should suck it up and realize nothing is gonna make me 100% happy and settle for less.

Glory to heroes!

HATEFREE CULTURE

I don't have a career either Venus, actually I'm a step further behind, because I never could figure out what to study as my interests changed as often as my moods... So I just when straight to work, and because of those fluctations, have had about 8 jobs and never had the same job twice. I shudder to think the amount of money studying would have cost me

Don't feel guilty, time and experience will lead you down the right path.

There's nothing wrong with taking a breather, or a step back, and reassessing things. Even better if you can actually enjoy yourself while doing so!

The only reason I finnished my studies is I am a horrible nerd who tends to get obsessed about things.

Right now it's my herbs. I really miss studying, as much as I hated academia in the end. It was part of my identity.

I feel lost now. Who the hell is Venus? I may know what I don't want... no idea what exactly I do want.

Glory to heroes!

HATEFREE CULTURE

Horrible nerd? I doubt there's any horrible within Venus.

Knowing what we don't want is a good thing.

Take me for example, I still have no idea if this can / will turn into a career, but I know which jobs NOT to apply for, what kind of industries do NOT suit me.

Nothing wrong with loving to learn, its something I can appreciate even though all my learning takes place as practical exams.

We all get lost along the way, its part of personal growth, don't let it discourage you. Yo will find the map, the flashlight, and all you need to find you again

A time out, a break, it sounds like a stellar idea IMO.

Venus, it sounds like you are living a pretty full life. Who says you have to settle down to career? A job is good but it can be just a job. Or, you could teach what you learn, learn more, teach more...travel on.

well, tbh, the only reason I want stable job now is that economy is tanking, and it's not longer times when you could just work to make just enough money "for travel and girls" and then have fun.

And non-profit don't want me so far.

Glory to heroes!

HATEFREE CULTURE

Trippin'... all this forum could testify how "horrible" i can get when I start going on about wars anywhere

Glory to heroes!

HATEFREE CULTURE

Thats nOt horrible, that's called PASSIONATE!!!!

I can relate to knowing what I don't want but not knowing what i DO want. It feels like wheels are spinning. BUT, every experience teaches us something about either our own nature or the nature of humankind.

Take your break, soak it in...and become like one of the herbs/flowers/medincinals you care for so delicately...revel in your own beauty, enjoy your own attributes, and let that which feeds you allow you to bloom.