Not sure if its possibly the tendrils of hypomania but it Looks like The Anxious is creeping up on me I think its got hold of my ankle. I keep sending emails to a friend, knowing they cant send anything back yet. They will end up with a whole list just from me and get overwhelmed. I feel almost like a stalker. When I get anxious I write, I've written 8 pages longhand of thoughts in a notebook. Sometimes I think its worse than the bipolar...or maybe its part of the bipolar, I dont know. My version of racing thoughts. I just hate thinking I am making someone else upset possibly. Aaaagh

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Can understand that you might be overwhelming some of your friends if you bombarding them with emails but I'm sure if they are really your friends they will understand if you explain. Writing is good. It helps get the thoughts out of your head. I hope you call your doctor if you think you are going into hypo mania.

Ugh anxiety is horrible, I hope you can get it back under control soon Your friend should understand that you are having a hard time, I doubt they could hate you for reaching out. I talk to my friends and write a lot too, my true friends have never made me feel guilty for ranting to them.

I woke up incredibly anxious this morning. I dont feel as if there are any thoughts setting this off but there are a few things that could be influencing it. Im about to have my morning meds then try and break it down and see if I can limit its effects on me. Feels impossible but I have to try something! I have work today and I dont fancy carrying a spew bag with me.

Thanks y'all, they weren't actually ranting, just being a bit obnoxious I guess. Like the kid who isn't doing anything wrong but you really wish he'd go away? I may be doing my favorite distorted thought which is fortune telling. I really need to get back into my cbt exercises. Anyway I finally took a klonopin so maybe I can calm this beast down. Wow, I just realized its almost 9pm and all I've eaten all day was a hot dog without the bun. Yep, anxiety.

Yes I think you are doing some mindreading and fortune telling there you have no idea what your friend will think, and again I say, if they are a friend, they wont mind. Not eating messes with me too but its so easy to forget to to when the anxiety is there

I just did some CBT and positive affirmations and I am under control now