It's just over there. That build to mania, the electricity through my body, the thoughts speeding up, the restlessness, the endless stream of great ideas. But I know it won't come the lithium seems to cap it at this level. It's like knowing there is a drug you crave just out of reach. I am so frustrated.

[Victoria'smom]

Is there anything you can do right now to slow it or make it not as severe? What can you prepare to help damage control

Thanks I know I should be doing something to try and control it but I just want one more little taste, I'll thimk of all the disasterous things that have happened in the past. I see my GP tomorrow for an unrelated thing I'll see if there is something after she chews me out for not having my levels done.

[BlueInanna]

I still cycled on lithium, hypo for a couple months last summer. I never got my bloodwork done as much as I was "supposed" to, but she was nice about it. Lithium is a feel good drug the way I see it - it helped pulled me out of a dark long depression. Maybe you need something else to keep mania away if you're worried about it. I mostly like & welcome my hypos, until they turn mixed or irritable rage. Try to talk to doc about how u feel the mania coming on & how you want it. Don't let him/her dismiss the topic, get advice - coping techniques, hopefully not just more drugs stacked on. Hang in there, let us know how it goes.