[dubblemonkey]

..bottomfeeder!...jimmyboy

always on the backfoot

...and the most difficult thing I have had to do is control myself!

like an insanity party making no noise!

and the slightest touch of affection and I'm subdued completely

...but the slightest un-nerve and I've been a freaking psycho...

I'm subdued now ...

I think it's important to be bipolar!

I believe it's important to have extra emotional energy

I believe it's important to be able to defend yourself against halfassed fools who want to hurt us..

we know what people don't know before they even forgot what they were meant to remember...

and it's just a favour

to help them forget

I'm a trashman...there will be no evidence of where I went because there is no evidence of where I came

[dubblemonkey]

...I'm talkin' about somethin' that's difficult but ok!

I look around everywhere I see pain...

I shut my eyes I hear the pain

I shut my ears I feel the pain...

I bury myself in the dirt!

I know the pain!...

I submerse in the human shame

I'm dumped in the crap I'm the trashman!

(if you know me you know it's just creative monkey)

[dubblemonkey]

the perfect image arrived!

he knows he is silly..

he saw it before it arrived and then it was an example of what exactly a mistake might be!

the indistinct wonders excite me and yet I must be separated from myself so I can enjoy them the angels of destruction need my help to achieve their dreams and I am tired all the time!

hopefully someone especially ME can ascertain some kind of reality to exist in this sublime retrospect occasion...

likewise everything is distracted and likewise complicated and everyone is screaming quiet!...like
soundf-cked and lifekilled and heartloved

and

beautiful