[Luna1975]

My life consists of attending my AA meetings, seeing my therapist, trying to walk my dogs and, if I can, make plans to try and structure my life.
I am held hostage by rapid mood shifts, mostly anger and hatred for who I am and what I seem unable to do- live a normal life.
I get thrown into senses of inhabiting different realities that I find myself in and can't find a way back to a solid and sad ground.
I can't explain much of what happens to me in my head to my partner for fear that she'll think I'm crazy. I can't trust people which leaves me isolated and more depressed, paralyzed to engage in what is perceived to be normal.
I can't get a job, struggle to get myself out of bed and every morning I dread having to face the day.
Does anyone feel like this?

yeah,

i feel like my life's been wasted due to this stupid illness (did i just say that?). anyway what the hell..

i do understand- my life feels like a puzzle. nothing fits where it should be and it leads to a very unstructured life