Mood swings....the cycle that must stop b4 I stop them all!

So tired of feeling so high that I am on top of the world, to dropping so low that it is beyond the depths of Hell.
I cannot take it! The lamictal does nothing. The cymbalta barely takes the edge off!
Years of this cycling back & forth. First I think there is great hope and healing. But, then comes the crash. The feeling of emptiness. My mind is shattered in so many different parts. Fragments of the abuse, fragments of the lack of nurture my Mother gave, fragments of how lonely and isolated I feel in when in a crowd of friends.
My lows make me depressed and want to die, the highs make me hyper and want to try and fly. Either way neither makes me feel stable.
I cannot keep up with the cycling!

((((((((Twisted))))))))
I hope you are doing better, and just so you know and i guess you already do know...
You are not alone in this; as painful as it is, here we are for support, PM me anytime!

((((((( Twisted ))))))))))
Please try to contact your pdoc, or one you can see right away. There is help,maybe the pills weren't right for you but there are other ones. It could be that you need a different mix. Lamictal is really not effective as some others for mania, but is excellent for depressive and hypomanic stages.
It is important with any med not to just give up,unless the prescribing pdoc advises it or helps you taper off.
One can do more harm than good messing with their meds. please call your pdoc.
Complications arise too, if one is abusing non prescription drugs and/or alcohol, I'm not saying you are, I do not know you, but it can be a problem if you are, and will need to adress that too.
I understand it can be overwhelming, I truly feel for you, and that is why I'm urging you to get professional help.
It's hard right now to ever think things can get better, but honestly they do, get the right meds,be compliant with the treatment plan,and not stray from a plan,consistancy is so important with anything.
Your problem(s) may not all be due to Bipolar, but a blend of other disorder(s),it is common, and with that you may need a customized combo or change in meds. if your present pdoc appears to be lacking in good communication(s) with you,try being assertive, unfortunately some docs don't seem to devote enough time with their patients, so we more or less have to be the ones to be a little more aggressive in getting some answers or direction.
PLEASE DO NOT give up,get help.
And always keep in mind there are people here that care, so always feel free to post/reply and/or PM.
Take care now,
DE

All I can say today is...I am trying to make it to tomorrow!

(((( TS ))))
You know my shoulders are always here for you to lean on. PM me if you need to. I care about you.