[OutlawedSpirit]

You know, I've noticed that I really can't tell when I'm going into an episode, but I can sure tell when I'm coming out of one. I was depressed, or mixed, or I don't know for quite a while before I saw my pdoc. It didn't help that I decided to go off my meds. I even thought I was doing well without them. Needless to say, my wife did not agree.

I had my Abilify upped, which didn't really do anything but give me Akathisia. Which just meant that I had to go on cogentin so another script to pay for when we're already flat broke. So I wasn't too terribly hopeful when the pdoc decided to give me Geodon on top of my Abilify, especially when she said she didn't think there was a generic for it. (And as a side note, somebody really needs to come up with a generic for Abilify, just saying...)

Well, I was happy to find out there was a generic for it. I still had to wait a day to get it fill cause we were that broke. Which meant I started taking it the night before my work week started. Boy was that a mistake. For like the first three days on it, I was loopy. I literally felt like I was high, then I got headaches, and felt nauseous. If I could have taken a week or two off to adjust, I would have, but I've found from past experience, our STD provider isn't the most accommodating when it comes to MH. They have denied me for med changes before. Which really sucks cause if something where to happen at work because I was dizzy or what not, I could end up loosing my job over it.

Anyways, yesterday the side effects seemed to lessen. I could think straighter, and I didn't feel hungover. I had a slight headache, but nothing like I had the couple days before that. But the most wonderful part was that I felt better. I was able to joke around with my daughter instead of just getting irritated with her. I didn't spend my whole day at working trying to find an excuse to go home. I even almost enjoyed my job again.

I don't think I'm quite where I should be yet, but i'm getting there. My pdoc started me on 40 mg of Geodon, and told me I could up it to 80 mg in a week if I thought it would benefit me. I took 80 mg last night, even though I'm a day or two short of being a week. However, I wanted to do it that way so if I get the side effects back from increasing it, I get them while I'm home and not at work.

I honestly don't know what the point of this whole thing was, it's just so nice to finally feel better.

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[BPandMe]

I'm so glad to hear this. That's awesome you're feeling better! Be proud of yourself for braving the stormy waters.

[venusss]

Enjoy it feeling better is.... good

[Themeanreds]

That is really great and encouraging news !!! The feeling of coming out of an episode is such a relief. I am glad to hear that you are feeling better!