Any other ladies?

Count me in to this club. I am definitely what you would nicely call.....fiery.

It is definitely way worse when I am up or down. And it is the smallest things. That will set me off. My best work so far has been throwing my husbands phone at the wind shield while seated in the passenger seat. We had to get the windshield replaced and people were all confused about how it shattered from the inside. Hehe.

Now you might think that must have been some hell of a fight right. But no. He basically just calmly said something about why were we hurrying so much when we were not going to be late and I apparently did not take that well. He is very patient about this stuff. He gets that there is not thought involved. We even had a good laugh about how he should go online and review the phone case with the story because though the windshield was smashed the phone was A Ok.

Meds def tone me down. I am also getting better ( or maybe it is the meds) at realizing when I am getting into a situation or a convo that it gonna set me off. And if I start to feel the fire building I just get away from everyone as fast as I can in whatever way I can. If I can take a walk that is always the best.

I definitely have problems with this. I'm ashamed, but I take a lot of my anger out on my husband the past few months I've been doing better. I used to have a fit of rage every day! Idk how he puts up with it.
I wish I could get rid of it entirely

I've had "anger issues" since I was a child. Started punching and kicking holes in walls since I was about 14 ( I'm 49 now). Slamming doors was my way to vent before I realized I could kick. Now I'm on Geodon and practically anger free. I stopped all my meds a few months ago, except for the Geodon. My counter tops and table have holes in them where I stabbed them with a screwdriver. Can't go off the Geodon. Too risky. I busted a glass top stove with the same screwdriver. I used to blame it on my father. He's an asshole. Parents divorced when I was four and he keeps a nasty temper and attitude. Always thought I got it from him. I just figure by now, he's unmedicated, and I not. If I go to hell for the people I wanted to kill because they pissed me off...I'll be the first one in line. ...NOT going off the Geodon!

You must not lose faith in humanity.
Humanity is an ocean;
if a few drops of the ocean are dirty,
the ocean does not become dirty.
~Mahatma Gandhi~

I am a very angry person when manic. I've verbally accosted strangers including an elderly woman. I attacked police officers when pulled over for a DUI; they asked me at the station if I was under psychiatric care lol. It's terrible though bc I'm afraid I'll get arrested and/or the public will think I'm on meth or pcp. In my bipolar support grp one of the guys goes to the police station when he moves to a new town. He tries to educate them on mania, but here still put him in jail for domestic disturbance and wouldn't let him have his meds.

A Ph D once told me that I must have gone through some terrible experiences to have such anger

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There is a thin line that separates laughter and pain, comedy and tragedy, humor and hurt.

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Oh my goodness I can relate to some many of the comments here. Thank you ladies for sharing. I now know that I am not alone.

I'm sad and glad there are others. If anyone doesn't know, youtube has an excellent instructional on how to fix holes in hollow doors.

That's always a good thing to know token451. I'm sure there must be something there for holes in the drywall as well.

I have struggled with anger since adolescence but I do think that anger is an appropriate feeling and response sometimes just society has historically preferred not to accept it from women.
I have had anger rages too many times but feel the medication has dulled it over the last few years. It still arises unfortunately with family conflict and PMS.
I'd really like to communicate more calmly and assertively each day

Yeah (though I don't have one at the handy). Have to say that when I did it, it was pleasing to discover a hidden talent. Lol. It was an apartment so we didn't have the paint to finish it off. Even so, you couldn't tell unless you worked at getting the light to hit it just right. (The wall's being white was handy though, of course. )

I think so too, and suspect it actually contributes to the ferocity. Things get bottled up. Big time.

Interesting... I just posted an entire post on how angry I have been lately. I tend to not get violent but if it doesn't pass, I tend to start thinking about self harm. When I get angry, I tend to go down deeper into myself and withdraw.

I am the same way when I get really angry and lose it. The hole gets deeper and I withdraw from everything. It doesn't happen as often now with the meds but it still happens often enough that I don't trust myself around others.
I'm not looking forward to the Christmas thing with hubbie's family.