[sugahorse1]

I'm referring more on the depressive side of things as I am not manic.
However, I have had such racing thoughts and such a scramble in my head. Yesterday I couldn't get to sleep and finally also had a meltdown where I was crying and shaking every now and again. I guess it felt good to release, but it still hasn't quieted the noise in my head.

They are not voices or sentences. There's nothing audible as such, but a feeling of hopelessness and wanting to give up. Feeling empty, not being cared for...

What is this? Is this a part of Bipolar? Something new altogether? The hopelessness has really gotten to me in a bad way

Sounds like a depressive phase. Depression can be really terrible sometimes

I have never suffered from psychosis but I have suffered like this. So I dont think it is psychosis.

[sugahorse1]

You do get psychosis in depression, which is mainly characterized by delusions - false beliefs

Perhaps I should have said, I have never been told these feelings were psychosis nor delusions in my many years of treatment, its just how depression is sometimes.

[IndieVisible]

Sounds like depression to me too. Psychosis can happen while depressed but that doesn't sound psychotic to me. I get extremely paranoid, not the I think my wife is cheating or nobody likes me, more like I know I'm being followed kind, more like everyone is out to get me, they are all in on it, trust no one kind of paranoid which of course introduces a lot of anxiety and or panic attacks. Hallucinations can also occur either auditory or visual or Tactile hallucinations which can actually be good or scary. I get those and feeling some one is touching me or passing thru me. I can't ever recall a scent hallucination. It's all delusional. Like an acid trip, it can be fun or it can be scary.

[sugahorse1]

Thanks for inputs. Appreciate the different experiences and thoughts