Anyone else do this when depressed?

So, I just mentioned in a reply that whenever I am manic, I look back on my depressive episodes with nostalgia, not "thank goodness that ended". Anyone else do this? It doesn't bother me, I don't know if it should or not. And I know I don't want to feel like that ever again, but I can't help but look at it like that.

Like, when I had bad postpartum depression with my first son, I look at it now as an experience that I'm glad I had. I look at the feelings with nurturing and love, not pain and anguish.

Does that mean something good? Am I normal? Does anyone else know what I'm rambling about haha?

I don't think you're rambling. I ramble and this is not a rambling.
I like to look back on all the bad things and see the value in having gone through them. I choose not to believe there could be no value in it.

Yes! All the time except I see it almost like: That will never happen again!

Depression can be easier to deal with, but I have dysphoric mania which is not fun at all. I have a lot of rage and I can't focus on anything to get any work done. In depression I am more heavy and apathetic, but at lest I'm not errupting like a volcano all the time.