[psychc]

Hi,
I just finished having a bit of a relapse (bp 2) after none for 5 years ) :
At 1 point 2 weeks ago, I kept interrupting a woman who is (sort of) my boss/colleague. She starting giving me dirty looks, so I started apologizing, but kept talking and interrupting her in a meeting.
Anyone done this? How do I fix it?

Also, has anyone felt really high? as if smoking pot, even though I haven't. I felt like smiling since felt so good. Is this hypomania?

Hate that I embarrass myself. Last time I just avoided seeing the more insignificant pple that I annoyed. I just couldn't face them. With this person I have to see her again. Maybe my shame is not proportional, but the fact that I couldn't stop myself makes me feel worse about it.

[Side of the Angels]

omg... yes. It's one of the reason I went to the doc years ago. ppl thought i was drunk or on drugs and i was sober for a year at that time. I talk to EVERYONE, passing ppl in walmart, I talk to them about the crap in their cart, I act a total fool... I have to BITE my lip or tongue sometimes when i am finally aware of what Im doing. Its embarrassing afterward, sometimes during it I know Im acting sully but I can't help it Im just I hafta talk and u hafta talk and blah blah I might me a lil hypo right now I am so sorry...

[BipolaRNurse]

Sometimes a little hypomania is a good thing. I sailed through a job interview recently when I was in that state, and I KNOW the extra energy it gave me helped me land the position. I do talk a lot, but I don't get to the embarrassing stage until I'm full-blown manic. And at that point, I don't give a rat's @$$ what I say or who I say it to, and I usually don't remember much of it when I do go off like that.

[psychc]

I don't think I have had full- blown mania, but not sure - I definately embarrass myself by NOT shutting up. It is as if I am on a train I cannot stop!
Is that mania or hypomania? I also have moments where I feel high, but happy or on other occasions I get extremely irritable.

[tealBumblebee]

I have hypomania and definitely get diarrhea of the mouth as well! Totally normal I suppose. Although, as talkative and unable to sit still; happy and motivated as I get - I'd hate to see what a true manic phase would do to someone!

[rohan75043]

I have felt the high but now I know when I feel it. It is no good during my high I talk a lot and am very happy.

[IndieVisible]

I'm surprised any one has to ask lol. My answer yes OH YES. I some times get in to my damn hugging and socializing and talking too much. I walk up to complete strangers and strike a conversation with them. All of which is very much out of my character. My wife gets embarrassed and then later so do I. "what was I thinking?" is the usual thought I get afterwards.

[PrairieCat]

Dear Ones,

I think there must be a way to deal with this for all of us, but I don't know what it is. I have been embarrassed all my life about simply talking normally - and maybe not so normally. Embarrassed about what I did or did not do, etc.

I think it is not so good for us to have to feel shame for this when we might just simply be acting normally! Or not. I came from a family that was shaming about any mistakes we made, about anything we did, things we said, etc.. A shame-based family, so to speak. What about you?

Should we be so ashamed of ourselves? I don't know if we should be. Why must we feel that way? Why does our family, society, psychiatry want us to be ashamed and embarrassed? Because we are different? Everybody is different. EVERYBODY! Some people I have known are total a-holes and absolute fools and they don't feel ashamed or embarrassed by the way they are. Why should we?

I probably ask an impossible question.

[psychc]

But how does one not feel embarrassed?
Ruining work relationships doesn't feel good.
The worst is the lack of control - maybe that is what's embarrassing...

[token451]

I was on the phone with my best friend a week or so ago, wouldn't shut up and realized I felt drunk. She told me I didn't sound drunk, just talkative. I probably would have felt embarrassed if I cared but at the moment I felt so good I didn't care. If it had been someone else, I may have been embarrassed after the fact.

Originally Posted by IndieVisible

I'm surprised any one has to ask lol. My answer yes OH YES...

Haha, I had the same reaction.
I've had some real whopping blush-makers when my yap is running even faster than my brain. Sentences take on whole new (and totally unintended), let's say….atmosphere. Double entendres have nothing on how these sentences come out. Yikes.

[Resident Bipolar]

Yes I do, very frequently. Sometimes when I'm struggling to sleep at night (hello, insomnia) all the embarrassing memories come back. Even though I can't be 100% in the dark, I'm sure my face sometimes goes red out of embarrassment just because of those memories!

RB

[gayleggg]

Many times, but the worst cost me my best friend and soul mate. It has been years and still hurts. If only I could have controled myself.

[steelfang]

Hypomanic: not really. I'm the life of the party when I'm like this and enjoy it very much.

Manic: Oh yes. I do so many foolish things socially and embarrass myself. I used to feel quite Ashamed after, but now I don't really sweat it since everyone is honestly too busy worrying about themselves to give much thought to little spurts of energy from me.

[psychc]

I usually interrupt people, thinking I have the most important things to say.
I do notice others are not impressed, but cannot stop!!
Very frustrating, especially at work.

[Tydi469]

Definitely not! We have nothing to be ashamed of, it's an illness, period. People aren't judged for having Diabetes...we shouldn't be judged for an illness we sure didn't ask for and have little if any control of at times. People just don't get it. If I hear oh get out and do something...get over it...or just stop. Okay, I'll just stop being mentally I'll, thanks that never occurred to me before. But there's a stigma associated with the mentally ill and it needs to be addressed. I liked the movie Silber Linings Playbook but it left out soooo many issues we deal with daily. But it's a start. I'd like to see more shows, movies etc that accurately portray the mentally I'll, the types, severity etc.
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I get paranoid when I am hypomanic, which causes embarrassment and job losses. I have some strange ideas at time, well strange to other people, they seem perfectly logical to me at the time... Its not so bad if I keep my mouth shut, although cartwheeling everywhere and jumping around like a child gets some weird looks too. Then there is the regret from sexual encounters... oh I am so glad I am so stable now!