[tigersassy]

I'm so over therapy as a whole. I am not getting anything out of it. this happens every time. I reach a point and then nothing helps. I really don't want to pay for something that isn't helping me. I don't even know what I want. I know everything my therapist keeps telling me. Somethings got to give. I wish I could just give it up. My health team won't let me though. So frustrated.
Tig

[~Christina]

Tell you Therapist your feeling stuck .. and need to move forward not muddle where you are . Not all therapist know you are feeling this way, some need to be told . Be straight up honest/ blunt whatever you call it. "Therapist I am not feeling this is working and I am stuck"

Good luck

[waggiedog]

Yes I must say, I'm at this point too. OK, I'm in the UK and we have the NHS, meaning I don't pay for care directly but that doesn't mean I just want to carry on going - wasting everybodies time and money. I've had almost a year of CBT/DBT/S.T.E.E.P.S. type therapy and I am no further forward than I was back when it all started. I'm very depressed and I have BPD. My Psych Dr refuses to address the depression and I honestly feel that therapy without meds to accompany it won't have any lasting effect. I do however, feel that the combined med AND therapy COULD help. It would be very nice if I were given the chance to put that to the test. The answer to that is NO, so I'm def giving up therapy. I have written a short polite letter, as I get tongue tied in face to face situations. So you are NOT alone in this matter.

[Fuzzybear]

[otroo]

I find group therapy works better for me than one on one. Good luck to you.

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[tigersassy]

Just because I don't want to start another new thread. I'm so over me. I can't handle this crap anymore. All over the ****ing place moods that last for days just to cycle back around to the ****ing mixed episodes from hell. I want to handle things the old way. The tried and true. This **** they have me doing isn't working. Its getting worse not better. I'm over the elevation too. The no one can touch me and if they try they'll get burnt to a crisp. I'm the only one who ****ing matters and if you think otherwise I want to beat the **** out of you. I should probably go to the er, but I don't want to. Thats not on my list. I know, I know. Do whats best for my mental state no matter what. Call my therapist who I don't even think knows what the hell shes doing half the time. Or call a suicide prevention line. Yeah thats not on the list either. Had an explosion at my spouse a little bit ago and am now trying to find out what pieces need picked up. I should be taking my meds like a good little trained poodle but I don't want to. I want to go get a tattoo I designed myself, but when we were going to the parlor my spouse sitting in the passengers seat because she can't drive outside of our city without getting lost, doing whatever she damn well pleases can't even pretend to not be grumpy when I ask her questions in regards to finding a parking space. Which results in me driving around for 45 mins to find a parking spot 10 of that spent yelling at her and how it doesn't matter what I want as long as shes ****ing happy. Not getting the tattoo tonight since couldn't find a parking spot and honestly want to best the **** out of someone and do some si ****. But I can't do that. Spouse had left don't know where she went or when/if she'll be home. Don't think I really care anyway. She'd just be on my *** and I really don't want that not to mention it wouldn't be safe. Sorry end rant....

Tig

[wildflowerchild25]

I just want to say that I understand, and I've been where you are. I don't offer advice because I know you already know what you SHOULD do. You have to make your own choices. But just know that I've been there, many of us have, and I know it does get better. I just wanted to offer a little support. I hope you can find some peace.

[hamster-bamster]

CBT and DBT are not for everyone. Maybe you need something else. Art process therapy, whatever. There are many modalities out there unless your T is married to CBT.

You only get out as much as you put in when it comes to therapy. Its the honest truth.

[tigersassy]

I understand that you get out what you put in. I truly do, but I'm so frustrated about all the ups and downs and impassable objects currently set in my way. I know these are temporary, but it doesn't make it better or easier. When I went in to see my therapist this time the first thing out of her mouth made me mad. It was about insurance and copays and how my coverage sucks and most people she sees only pay half of what I pay. I don't understand how she could think that was an ok topic right off the bat. So the entire session I just wanted out of her office. Its been getting more and more like that. I've almost been seeing her a year now and because my meds aren't right it seems like she won't touch the deep stuff that needs work. She wants to talk about stupid stuff. And this has happened at most appointments at least for a little bit. I can't always bring her back to topic because I'm so frustrated that she ran off that if I try to bring her back I'm afraid I'd get violent. Which I have to try very hard to resist the urges sometimes.

Tig

[wing]

Sounds like your therapist is insensitive and self-centered. Time for a new one?

[wildflowerchild25]

I agree. Sounds like it might not be therapy but your actual therapist that's the problem. If you don't like her and she just annoys you, it's definitely not a good match. I would never continue with someone these days if I didn't match well with the person. I'm not paying someone who can't help me.

[tigersassy]

I don't know. I'm just so tired of having to deal with mental health. It probably wouldn't hurt to find a new therapist, but I don't want to go through intake all over again. I haven't found a therapist I clicked with like I feel I should since my first. Maybe my standards are set to high. Maybe I need to accept that I'm ****ed up in the head and people are only ever going to partially be able to help me. Thats what it feels like. The talk is there but the execution is seriously lacking. Or maybe it just me. Like I sabotage myself. Thinking I don't deserve to be better. Maybe that is me. I feel guilty because I'm getting help and my grandmother who has obviously needed it hadn't gotten any. I see the similarities between her and me. If she feels like I do I understand her obsession with alcohol. I wish I could but I don't like that out of control feeling that comes along with drinking. I'm a controling person when it comes to certain things. Now to try and sleep.

Tig

[hamster-bamster]

Tiger,

I think she is a bad one for you. Starting the session with insurance talk is bad. You are paying her, or the insurance is, and you cannot even voice your being frustrated!

Look up "iatrogenic" on Wikipedia, meaning that a bad dr is not just a waste of time and money.

[tigersassy]

Talked to my nurse and he thinks I should not jump the gun looking for a new therapist yet. He thinks she was overly concerned about how much I was paying. Which was about me and not in a negative way. I kindda see what he was talking about. I'm supposed to keep redirecting her and see if it keeps up. Oh and he called me paranoid which he then explained why I am thinking the way I am. It was very insightful. I think anyone going through and thinking the way I am would be paranoid too. I'm on the upswing it is tipping the scales over to the dark side of up though. What can you do give things time and thought patterns change.

Tig