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Mar 17, 2014, 08:40 PM
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I don't get it...why us?
Why can we have a perfectly happy day with no problems (maybe even a great day) and then, out of nowhere, start having uncontrollable suicidal thoughts? No arguments or events spawn them, they're just there... Why can't I control my emotions at all anymore? is this normal for even bipolar people? I just feel like I've been beaten down by life... |
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Mar 17, 2014, 09:28 PM
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 Yeah, it's pretty normal......for us BPs, anyway. They're called "intrusive thoughts"---they pop into our heads completely without permission and can ruin what was a perfectly good day. The thing to remember is that intrusive thoughts are ONLY thoughts.....they are not actions, nor do we have to act on them. They are disturbing, yes, but the only power they have over us is the power we give them. Of course, I've only been able to figure this out since I went on antipsychotics. LOL. 
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Mar 17, 2014, 09:35 PM
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Is what I'm talking about psychosis? I didn't know that...I thought it was just the same as normal suicide thoughts.
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Mar 17, 2014, 09:36 PM
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Hi Lobster, I have the same problem. Sometimes I'll be on top of the world and I'll think"I should die now". Part of it is I want to preserve that feeling of happiness forever.
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Mar 17, 2014, 09:42 PM
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It's not psychosis, lobster, most likely anyway. I know what you're talking about. I self-harmed for years, and even when I stopped at 20, I still thought of it probably at least once a day. Even when all was well, it would just pop into my head. I dispelled the thought quickly but now, at 27 ( and with a relapse into self harm this last year), I can't imagine I'll ever be without the thoughts. No matter what. It's just part if me. I imagine it's what an addict feels even years, decades into recovery.
Try not to let it get you down. As bp nurse said, they're just thoughts.
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Mar 17, 2014, 09:48 PM
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It doesn't sound like psychosis to me if you are just having thoughts. It would be psychosis if there were delusions accompanying it, or voices telling you to kill yourself, or something like that. I have had suicidal thoughts out of the blue too. When I'm depressed I think about it a lot.
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Mar 18, 2014, 03:14 PM
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I think this everyday.
It's so nice that I'm not the only one that does.
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