[OutlawedSpirit]

You know, reading all the posts from all of you that are med free may me crave a med free life. I wish I could be free of the need to be home right after dinner to take my pills. I wish I could be free of feeling tired all the time. I wish I could be free of clouded thinking. I don't know if I could ever do it, though. Especially after trying to come off of my Abilify last time threw me into a bad depressive episode. I also would not have my wife's support. After the Abilify fiasco, I was told that I absolutely must stay on my meds. Oh well, I can dream, right?

[Victoria'smom]

My husbands new pdoc, looking at me, told my 'husband'. " you need to take your medicine, no matter what" I no longer have the blessing of my team to get off my medication. Or here . My husband just says he loves me no matter what but is the first to hand me them when things go awry.

We can always work on staying stable and reducing meds but I kind of feel i need a strong support system to achieve that and there is no way to get that for me.

[Blitter2014]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

My husbands new pdoc, looking at me, told my 'husband'. " you need to take your medicine, no matter what" I no longer have the blessing of my team to get off my medication. Or here . My husband just says he loves me no matter what but is the first to hand me them when things go awry.

We can always work on staying stable and reducing meds but I kind of feel i need a strong support system to achieve that and there is no way to get that for me.

I have been following the thread created about med free peopl,e are they more stable, with interest, as I have previously spent near 5 years med free after being on lithium and various other drugs for about the same time. So I have been on both sides of the fence. Without wanting to upset anyone, you state you have no way of getting a strong support team together to be able to achieve medication free - why?

One of the things I absolutely hate about Bipolar is no one trusting my judgement as to when I know what is working and what is not working when it comes to medication. Yes trust your PDoc to know what drugs fit the symptoms presented, and trust others to tell you your high or low, but you have to trust yourself to know what effect the drugs are having. Am I to understand no one is trusting your judgement?

I know with my wifes Crohn's Disease, which has lead to her having depression, and with my son having Aspergers, that I have to be fairly careful because anyone going too far awol will rock the whole families boat. There are times where I cannot tell whether it is me not coping or my sons not coping becuase of his Aspergers, that sets the agro ball in motion (while he was still living with us - til Oct last year). I find I really wish I had a sounding board I could trust, who would give it to me as it is, and not have to second guess everything.

Is the pdoc right, am i right, is my wife right, is my son right? The only think I know is when the meds are making it easier for me to cope or harder for me to cope. But like you, I wish I had a strong and stable support team. Thus far, the only people who have not run in the last several years are the people on here, and Ive only been here for a couple of months - so give them time.....lol.

I wish it were funny, and I'm not making light of your situation. I just wish I could help.

[swheaton]

There are worse thing than being on meds. I do know how you feel

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

You know, reading all the posts from all of you that are med free may me crave a med free life. I wish I could be free of the need to be home right after dinner to take my pills. I wish I could be free of feeling tired all the time. I wish I could be free of clouded thinking. I don't know if I could ever do it, though. Especially after trying to come off of my Abilify last time threw me into a bad depressive episode. I also would not have my wife's support. After the Abilify fiasco, I was told that I absolutely must stay on my meds. Oh well, I can dream, right?

Brother, I just got to say be thankful you have a wife, and a supportive one at that.

[r010159]

Originally Posted by swheaton

There are worse thing than being on meds. I do know how you feel

Hospitalization for one. Then who would be there for his wife?

[Victoria'smom]

Blitter I pmed you.

I'm bad to get off topic, but right now I wish that I was super wealthy and could have an outing for everyone here and their families and pay their expenses so everyone could bond since we are all in this together.

[Honeydew1]

Wow, interesting.
I'm still on meds. Was diagnosed almost 3 years. We've haven't found a happy dose of meds yet. Trying Seroquel again though on a very low does. I can't believe I was on 200mg in the behavioral hospital.
I've have a book with several different routes of becoming med free. For me, I'm building a self exploration right now. I'm up, so typically I cycle down 2-3 weeks. I've got two things that will, I'm hoping I won't crash, will be a bit higher.
One thing is for certain, I'm me first, then, I've got this chemical imbalance so "they" said. Regardless I am human.

[Honeydew1]

Wow, interesting.
I'm still on meds. Was diagnosed almost 3 years. We've haven't found a happy dose of meds yet. Trying Seroquel again though on a very low does. I can't believe I was on 200mg in the behavioral hospital.
I've have a book with several different routes of becoming med free. For me, I'm building a self exploration right now. I'm up, so typically I cycle down 2-3 weeks. I've got two things that will, I'm hoping I won't crash, will be a bit higher.
One thing is for certain, I'm me first, then, I've got this chemical imbalance so "they" said. Regardless I am human.

This is how nuts I am. I was originally on a 250mg Depakote = 1 in morning 2 at night

They changed me 2 morn. 2 night 2-3 months a ago. Then a month later it changed to 500mg 1 & 1

I just realized I've been taking 2 & 2. What should I do?

My eating slacked slightly however.

[Blitter2014]

Originally Posted by Lmciyah

This is how nuts I am. I was originally on a 250mg Depakote = 1 in morning 2 at night

They changed me 2 morn. 2 night 2-3 months a ago. Then a month later it changed to 500mg 1 & 1

I just realized I've been taking 2 & 2. What should I do?

My eating slacked slightly however.

get in touch with your prescribing doctor and advise of situation then ask for advice. I would keep taking as you are now til you know how to safely change back down. Don't want to trigger anthing nasty.

oh and not crazy at all....sounds like something I would do and I have it on paper that I'm clinically sane (ish)!?!

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[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

You know, reading all the posts from all of you that are med free may me crave a med free life. I wish I could be free of the need to be home right after dinner to take my pills. I wish I could be free of feeling tired all the time. I wish I could be free of clouded thinking. I don't know if I could ever do it, though. Especially after trying to come off of my Abilify last time threw me into a bad depressive episode. I also would not have my wife's support. After the Abilify fiasco, I was told that I absolutely must stay on my meds. Oh well, I can dream, right?

I have to say that Abilify did the exact same thing to me. It was horrible.

I think from time to time we all want off our meds for various reasons. It works for some but can have devastating consequences for others. I would love to come off my meds but don't dare. I'm too afraid of what will happen. I struggle enough being on meds. Going off is a scary thought for me