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#576
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I hope you all feel better and i also had some bad blood cell readings from my meds, have to go for more tests now too
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#577
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Exhausted now I'm coming down from mania, but an okay day otherwise. Saw Dracula Untold. Really enjoyed it. Vampire delusions are always fun to get sucked into. Might spend a few days in those.
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#578
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What's so funny about peace, love and understanding? Elvis Costello |
#579
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I feel like there is an empty hole in my soul, but just
cannot figure out what it is
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What's so funny about peace, love and understanding? Elvis Costello |
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#580
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I'm suspiciously good. After weeks of depression, I feel upbeat again, and I'm wondering why. Remember I got the diagnosis of bipolar just two days ago, and I have better since then. Is it possible the mood stabilizer could have worked after two nights of taking it? Or is it more that the diagnosis was liberating, and I'm somewhat hopeful about treatment options? Or maybe I just cycled back into some form of hypomania?
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#581
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Really had a pretty good week. Then, this morning I woke up feeling depressed and sad.
After the good week, I feel even worse. I am mourning the loss of the good feelings. The 'normal, happy' place. I feel like I am going to be stuck here forever.
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Bipolar I, C-PTSD Lamictal 400mg, Zyprexa 15mg, Topomax 100mg, Elavil 50mg |
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#582
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I went to the thrift shop and bought myself a really nice teapot and cup.
It seems like the little things give me so much comfort
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Still in the black hole of depression. I SIed something I haven't done in over a year. I'm so tired off fighting to keep my head above water. I just want to give up. Yes I know that I'm eventually going to cycle back around, but I don't want to. That just means I'm going to cycle back down at some point too. I can't do this.
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PTSD possible bipolar Meds: propranalol 20mg 2x's(blood pressure), lamictal 300mg, seroquel 100mg, effexor 75mg, sprycel 100mg (CML, chronic myeloid leukemia), iron supplement, multivitamin ![]() |
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Not good today. Had a couple of calm days after the mania subsided, but now the irritation has set in. I want to strangle just about everyone, from my asshat colleagues to my damned mother. Killer headache. I'll be in a rage tomorrow. Just hope I can sleep tonight. I'm starting to obsess about one of my most hated colleagues, and it's lodged in my head now.
Darvula |
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#585
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It's a place filled by chocolate and ice cream. You must be running low on them. Rx: hot fudge sunday
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#586
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Not really sure how I feel....
FOOD ALERGY WARNING: May contain nuts |
#587
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Woke up wanting to rip out my vain's and sever them. Promptly went back to sleep and woke up okay.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#588
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Got through the weekend with no booze or cigarettes! Did homework for next week so I can be lazy for some time. Have been getting excited and been researching for adventure trips I'm going to make next summer and summers after.
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#589
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Possibly crashing. Fatigued...severely fatigued and sleeping excessively today. I had been sleeping a little more with Seroquel on board but nothing like this. Moving around is SUPER exhausting. Never good when I just wanna stay in bed...and that's exactly how I feel.
Thanks all for being so wonderful. ~~delusionsdaily~~ My med regime: AM: 500mg Depakote ER 150mg Seroquel PM: 1,000mg Depakote ER 150mg Seroquel |
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#590
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Rocky start -had bad dream about my old hoarded house & my ex-bleh. Had a fabulous peppermint patty muffing for breakfast, took a shower, worked on a new art project for a while & Skyped with my daughter-hope for better sleep tonight with no bad dreams.
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"This is just a moment in time. Step aside and let it happen."-Inara from Firefly ![]() Bipolar Disorder Depression Generalized Anxiety Disorder OCD PTSD Insomnia Chronic Pain Prozac 30mg daily Buspar 10mg three times daily Propranolol 10mg three times daily Currently titrating up Lamictal daily Ambien 5mg prn Trazodone 50mg prn |
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Life is funny, que no? Felt so sad yesterday, and then today, I had a pretty darn good day. I'm thrilled when I have good/great days. I just wish I could get over the lurking feeling that the bad day was just around the corner. Sigh!
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Bipolar I, C-PTSD Lamictal 400mg, Zyprexa 15mg, Topomax 100mg, Elavil 50mg |
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#592
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I feel like there is a hole in my soul that needs to
be filled.
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#593
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I've been working on catching up on school work all weekend, so I'm not feeling much beside anxiety and concern for that. Who knows to what emotional state this will lead?
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pullin' myself up by my bootstraps
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"Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you can see the top." -Wildflower http://missracgel.wixsite.com/bearhugs |
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Today, at work, a person lower on the food chain went to my boss, behind
my back and got him to over-rule my decision. How sweet it will be when we cannot meet our deadline because of his stupid decision
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#596
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Skipped class to self-harm. And to think I was feeling really good at the end of last week.
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#597
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Had a good day so far. Back to work, but no stressful emails in my in-tray.
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#598
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It is raining. Rainy days always make me feel so sad
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What's so funny about peace, love and understanding? Elvis Costello |
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Up & down day for me-haven't made it to the shower yet but I did go out quickly to vote & worked on some art projects & listened to some mellow music. Tried calling some of my family but no one picked up-left messages which is hard for me to do sometimes. Took my meds & vitamins.
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"This is just a moment in time. Step aside and let it happen."-Inara from Firefly ![]() Bipolar Disorder Depression Generalized Anxiety Disorder OCD PTSD Insomnia Chronic Pain Prozac 30mg daily Buspar 10mg three times daily Propranolol 10mg three times daily Currently titrating up Lamictal daily Ambien 5mg prn Trazodone 50mg prn |
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Pretty good day. Sort of manic. Crazy singing, flash of thought, insane happiness, and off I went. All incredibly good.
Tonight, just tired. What does it all mean? My last pdoc said it just means that I am terribly moody. ![]()
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Bipolar I, C-PTSD Lamictal 400mg, Zyprexa 15mg, Topomax 100mg, Elavil 50mg |
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