[Cocinella]

HEy eceryone,

for those who have read my first upadte (wher lovering Lamictal from 100 to 0) here is a new update from my side.

Talked to my pdoc just a little while ago, telling her I cry a lot, mostly cus of problems I have with my BF but my reactions are too intense, I cry and I cry even if someone metions his name. She said you are very unstable so come back on tuesday, meanwhile take 75mg of Lamictal.

The other day she mentioned that if tapping of Lamictal won't help we might try another med insted of Lamictal (something beginning with leter L, also antiepileptic med). She will avoid AD.

It's horrible. I told her I dunno either our problems with BF are causing this, but in anyways my reactions shouldn't be SOOO STRONG. So she just said....tell your BF you can't make decisions in a state your now...and go and run and get tired.

SO I'm off hiking with him today, waiting for tuesday and hoping to be stable someday soon. This is destroying my life...

[JigssawFeeling]

Sorry about your bad mood Cocinella.
I can somewhat relate to your over-reacting to stuff, currently going through some similar stuff, am also bummed that I seem to take bad things like the wrost things.
Hiking is great though, you should definately keep those activities up and make your BF know exactly how you feel, perhaps when you lack the motivation, he will support you and make you go out with him.
Power to you!

[Mountainbard]

Hi Špela,

I'm sorry you're going through such a rough patch. I'm really not very familiar w/cyclothymia, and all I really know is it's considered a "mild" form of bipolar. It doesn't sound very mild right now for you, and I hope things get better soon.

Relationship issues always complicate dealing with mental illness, no matter what that illness is. Just remember you have to take care of yourself before you can fix a relationship. And I hope your boyfriend can understand you're not in a place to make decisions right now and give you time and space.

I think it is curious that your pdoc wants to take you off the lamictal (which is a mood stabilizer) and keep you on Abilify (which is a supplemental antidepressant). That is certainly a topic to explore further with her.

al the best,
Randy

[Capriciousness]

Is it possible there is some anxiety going on. Obv I don't know and you need to listen to your doc but for me personally the over reacting would be helped by some benzos.

[Cocinella]

thanks guys for your reply your the best.

yup i ame xperiencing some anxiet< for sure, but i cry a lot and change opinion a lot. so im back on 100mg, and back to my pdoc on tuesday.

she said we'll manage the med's and i should just go out and run. as for big deccisions keep them stil until your stable. she's right.

no major decisions and no major fights and stress. i'm the most important now, and until i'm emotionaly stable...i can't do anything.

you all know how hard it is, and really a big thank you to all of you do send some good wishes and keep your thumbs up for me...

will i be OK?

[Mountainbard]

You will be ok! Sending you all kinds of good wishes and energy.

Randy

[JigssawFeeling]

Yes!

And my advice is, keep yourself busy and try not to overthink, it'll pass and soon you'll be feeling good again

[Cocinella]

Love you all

I have support...i will make it!i have great friends here-thank you Christina-and got some good advice.holding on till tuesday...at least thinking of that makes me feel better

[LastQuestion]

Depending on how long someone has been on Lamictal suddenly going off it can lead to chaos in the CNS due to withdrawal. The brain adapts to the medication, develops dependance, and then becomes unstable due to imbalances. Essentially every small reaction can be amplified.

The best way to get off of any psychotropic is to do it slowly so the brain can adapt while also reducing stress so as to minimize ones responses to stress and the damage it can do.

If your pdocs other L med is Lamotrigine then she's basically giving you the generic version of Lamictal. If you want off of Lamictal you'll need to do a slow taper over the course of many weeks, otherwise you will need another mood stabilizer.

[StayinAlive]

So sorry you're having a hard time. Thinking of you.

[LastQuestion]

Also, withdrawal from Lamictal leads to increases glutamate in the brain which damages dendrites and neurons. In prolonged excess it can lead even to neuronal cell death. Exercise has been observed as instigating the release of BDNF in the brain, which plays a key role in neurogenesis, a process which improves mental health dramatically.

It can take about three weeks for nootropic factors to heal the brain, which is the time it takes many antidepressants to take effect, and so its important to keep up with regular exercise which increases the heartrate enough for a thorough workout, as that is what has been found as most effective in terms of physical exercise which leads to increases in nootropic factors within the brain..