[loophole]

I'm in a partial hospitalization program... they took me from four meds and got rid of two and added latuda.. so now I'm on lamictal, seroquel, and latuda... I've noticed I've been less depressed.. slightly hypo manic... only problem is when I hear people having conflict around me and the conversation gets a bit louder I start feeling my skin crawl and I'm soo close to snapping.. I have once.... so I'm kinda stuck on what to do... I get the creepy crawlies once in a while but other then that my depression seems less but I'm in a better overall mood.... (side effects aren't bad but my jaw flexes sometimes when my anxiety goes up... therapist will ask what I'm thinking.. I'll be like not much and she'll say we'll your jaw was flexing.. I can't feel it for notice it... and grind my teeth a bit)

[Victoria'smom]

The flexing of the jaw acctually worries me more than the seeping anger. You didn't say when they switched you but I'm guessing therapy is where you're going to deal with the seeping anger.

[loophole]

Yeah I've been in therapy for going on 3 years. . It's helped me immensely. . I'm in my bedroom right now be because in laws are visiting from out of state (very freaking opiniated and super ignorant all though they know they are smart leads to more ignorance if you ask me).. and I felt like i was about to go loony tunes.. so just got up and walked out..... the seeping anger has always been a back burner for me but the sensation has gotten stronger in the last 3 weeks.. which is when i started taking latuda (also when jaw issues started)... I'm not as depressed.. feeling good but the feeling of going off is much harder to push away...

[loophole]

And bumping on account I'll be at the hospital again today

[lilypup]

My jaws grind a bit and I occasionally "chew" on my mouth. If it keeps me sane I will take it.

[loophole]

Lala look at me look at me! I want attention...

[Victoria'smom]

are you okay?

[loophole]

Not really... just upset about this dissociation (new word to me but long term issue that has gotten much worse lately... ) I posted over in dissociation forum section a bit of what's going on in my head

It's not pretty.. at least to me... it's a bit upsetting and a bit wtf....

[loophole]

I deleted the details.. a bit too much exposure on personal info

[loophole]

Other posts get love.. apparently I'm not tapped in here either.. nobody gives a **** about me I swear it

[Tucson]

Here I am. I have been following your posts and I am concerned for you. Take care!

[~Christina]

Im glad your in a partial program they can be very helpful I have been told . The closest one to me is over a 100 miles away so not an option.

Its really possible that your medications could be causing problems? maybe the wrong med all together or maybe a dose needs to changed ?

Let your team know all the symptoms your having and if they dont take it seriously enough then keep pushing , be your own best advocate.

Things will get better , it often takes more time than we would like

[Disorder7]

I was wondering the same thing. If the jaw thing is a med side effect.
Although I have TMJ and do a lot of jaw clinching that I'm not aware of at all.

Some meds can even have disassociation as a side effect. At the very least it can make it worse than before. You might want to go to the Crazy Meds web site and check up on some of the things you're taking. Just a thought.

Take care.

[loophole]

Originally Posted by Disorder7

I was wondering the same thing. If the jaw thing is a med side effect.
Although I have TMJ and do a lot of jaw clinching that I'm not aware of at all.

Some meds can even have disassociation as a side effect. At the very least it can make it worse than before. You might want to go to the Crazy Meds web site and check up on some of the things you're taking. Just a thought.

Take care.

Thank you. . I have been doing emdr at the hospital and the therapist wants me to continue it.. he and the dr diagnosed me with dissociation disorder.. the emdr has been one of the biggest things to ever help me.. I never believed in that kind of stuff but for me it's been a fantastic tool.. still had 5 believe.. however there were things during my childhood that I have blocked out.. remember some pieces but the emdr has really brought things up and I'm able to clear my head (for once the racing though subside for a little bit) and concentrate on specific areas of my childhood... just some things aren't comfortable typing out for the world to see on here... I did on dissociation forum but deleted info right after I posted it...

[StayinAlive]

Hope you're feeling better.

[loophole]

Thanks I feel better... it's still strange and more awkward after sort of reliving some things.... however it in some weird way is a sense of relief. . I have a better idea of ways to make myself better and control my dissociation. .. years of just hating the world makes more sense to me.. I think it will help me to learn and hopefully cope with life better overall.. wish I could run from it too....