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Not a mixed state although a mixed state can feel like a break from reality. Not a real bad mania but a true real break from reality.
Mine was awful. First I started out in a hypo. I was abused in an organization I would rather not name. Anyway there are a bunch of websites exposing it. At first I would just help new victims of this organization that had left bc I've been out 15 yrs, well 11 at the time. Anyway I became obsessed with all the news stories. It's was some really, really sick stuff. I started not getting much sleep. I started not eating much. Then before I knew it it had been 3 months of this. My apt was in shambles. I went to the Dr but didn't make sense. I couldn't stay off the computer looking up news stories about this organization. I was completely obsessed with getting it all exposed. Then I didn't sleep or eat for 5 days. Then a woman making a documentary about all the sick **** going on in this organization called and told me one last story. That was it, I could feel my mind slip. I started to slowly believe every business, company etc had ppl from that organization drugging and raping ppl. I thought it was all a big conspiracy. I wouldn't go to the hospital bc I thought they would drug and rape me. My mind wouldn't stop racing, just wouldn't stop with all the images of all the stories I had read. What I went through myself. I was terrified. I started accusing my family of being in the organization. Anyway finally did go to the hospital. It took days for them to get me to sleep. It was scary... If u don't mind sharing, what was your break like? Last edited by Anonymous100205; Sep 23, 2014 at 12:59 PM.. |
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Yep, I have. Memories that are not real...all the way to mania.
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Everything I take in has an esoteric/multiple meaning(s). It is exhausting wading through the input. I'm an constantly anxious and go nuts trying to deal with intrusive thoughts, which the devil constantly comments on negatively. And I cry all the time because I'm besieged. I. Am. Exhausted. ![]() |
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I've had some pretty bad psychotic episodes and they seem to get worse every time. They have to do with the shadow people going after me and wanting stuff inside of my brain. They get a bunch of people to follow me and do their work during the day (shadow people can't be out in the day) while they follow and chase me at night.
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Just getting so obsessed and the racing thoughts and not sleeping just isn't good. Are u taking any meds right now? My poor son... |
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Yes, I'm taking meds currently, but they don't help much. I don't know why. Maybe they're the wrong stuff.
I keep telling my shrink what I experience and that I feel like I'm two different people, literally, but he doesn't seem to take me seriously. He's a really nice guy, but kind of clueless, I guess. __________________ Shipwrecked by the laughter of the gods . . . |
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I just made a long post on this and I sent and my Internet cut out
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mine was very frightening, as well. I went in the hospital to escape thinking I was being poisoned, only to believe that there were sick doctors in the hospital giving lobotomies and torturing animals. I thought they had a hold of my dog and my nephew. I was scared to death. Let's hope that our medication always works well enough in the future to keep these experiences at bay.
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I remember asking a nurse if I could see the bottom of her shoes (I thought they were bugged and someone was listening in). The nurse said, "We wear special shoes that can't be removed."
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Omg, they are such shits. I had a nurse slam my finger in a door, and then say, and I'll do it again. I left that night. I really should have filed a complaint against them.
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