Who would want me?

I really like being home. My stress is cut but 75 % and I feel like myself again. I love being home to take care of things the kids need and keep the housework up. I dont have to worry about co-workers.

Tonight hubby made the comment that "some of us have to work for a living". Which means I sit on my butt and dont help with the finances. It might have been a slip on the lips, but now I know. We dont need the money, he just...I dont know.. sigh I feel like a disappointment.

Ive been out of work a little over a month. I left on bad terms.

I started looking in the want adds. All I could think was, 'who would want me"? I have mood swing from hell. My mind goes off in different directions from time to time. I dont handle stress well anymore. I dont handle corrected criticism well, I take everything to heart a lot of the time. I get sick easy. I dont keep a job long and resume shows it. Hubby does not want me working in the evenings or on weekends. Im so frustrated. I am getting help for the mood swings and its working great.

They are going to look at my resume and think "no way, she doesnt last".

Stay at home job would be perfect for me, but those are so hard to find.

The thing that stands out most to me in your post is the first, short paragraph. It seems clear that being home, and doing all of the work to run the home (which is work) makes you happy.

Just an observation.

Yes, you are so right. I just want to make hubby happy too.

I talked to him last night and he said he supports me with whatever I want to do. Just the sly comment gets to me.

I figure when Im ready I will look. Im just not ready.

So glad to hear you talked with him more and that he supports you.

It is called being a homemaker for a reason, reflecting the hard work involved in making and keeping a home. You are not a "homestayer" - you are a homemaker.