[theSI]

Greetings to all, I just wanna say I'm very grateful for the outlet this site is for venting my problems. I've been so out of whack but now things are changing for the better finally. I'm doing better with controlling my emotions without medication; I have been tested a number of times but I haven't completely lost it at all I've maintained composure, kept my sense of humor and the main thing I grapple with daily, FORGIVENESS, is a now an asset I can rely on to letting go of frustrations. Due to the nature of what I go through psychologically I'm very aware of the swings of mania and depression but I'm fighting those negative demons everyday each time I feel it coming on to me.

I have a sick grandmother who died and came back for the 2nd time in her lifetime and another great grandmother who had brain surgery and is starting to forget everyone. These are very hard times for my family but I've been solid not folding emotionally, although it saddens my heart greatly my willingness to embrace life and death as natural factors in everyone and everythings life has helped me cope with these ills. The last decade I've seen so many friends and family pass and it's been difficult and it's heavy on my heart when I think of them. But I've kept my head high and let the negative ride right out of my system I hope everyone else has done the same and if not keep fighting! 13Luv 13peace

[kaliope]

I admire your ability to stay strong and move forward despite all the stressors in your life. keep up the good work.

[stellarx]

Your doing a good job. The hardest challenge in my life is getting rid of negativity. I find growing a beard has been a way to deflect negativity in my life. Everyone has a technique . Keep it up.