[czarina1984]

I am having a hard time with my meds right now and have had hypomanic symptoms that are getting more and more out of control. I have a friend who I usually talk to but this would be the first time she would have seen me this way and out of control. My drs are involved but I miss her as my backup. I am torn between trying to keep her safe and out of this part of my reality and needing her support. How do you balance that? Any advice?

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry you are suffering. I think I may be hypomanic right now myself or at least leaning that way. My husband would probably agree. And I don't see my counselor until Tuesday. It's the first time I will see him since before Christmas and my mood has declined quite a bit since then. So I understand your distress.

If she is your friend, I would think she would be glad to be there for you. So far mine remains hidden from my friend but I know that if I need her she would be there for me. It were me and I needed the support I would tell my friend and ask for help.

[kaliope]

gosh, that is really difficult. does she know you are bipolar? if she does and is a good friend i think she will understand but it is a better conversation to have when you are not cycling so you can tell her what to expect and let her know what behaviors are "safe" and what she needs to worry about. i know i totally freaked the hell out of my friends when i was manic because i had a thing for emailing people big long dissertations about what i was feeling because i was certain they would be able to "fix" me. i tried to spread it around to various friends at least. but their response would be "i was really worried about you kaliope, i didnt know if i should call the cops to do a welfare check or not" so when i was doing ok i would talk to them about my manias and we made a deal that if they got crazy long emails they would just not read them.,,lol. i was always so embarrassed by the things i revealed. and honestly, i did lose a lot of friends because of this as well. people just cant handle mental illness. i am sorry i have to tell you that cause i dont want you to worry but i want you to know the truth. know that you always have us here. you can post fifty million new threads if you want to, we will understand. you can pm me or any other community liaison and we will be happy to talk to you. several of us are bipolar so we will understand what you are experiencing. youre not alone in this. take care.