[aged2324]

I had 12 years with no incidences affecting my bipolar and sobriety then I went off my meds with doctors approval and I started taking my will back. I shopped alot got into an unhealthy relationship and stopped telling my sponsor the truth. I didn't drink but took an overdose of trazadone ended up in hospital because of my depression and cycle downward. I am back in my program and feel quite humbled. Anybody have this experience I would like to know how you get through each day...acceptance is the key I know just want to know I am not alone...thanks

[kaliope]

i wasnt stable that long but i did go off my meds after doing ok for a while thinking i was ok and able to handle life without them. life came crashing down in a way it never had before. it proved without a doubt that no matter how good i do, i can never go off my meds again. meds are the reason that i do so well, plain and simple. it is difficult accepting that truth.

[BraveSwimmer]

Sometimes, it can be easy to think that maybe meds aren't necessary. maybe life circumstances have changed, or to think we have changed and developed and feeling like for whatever reason we don't need them because we never wanted to take them in the first place. You are not alone, I think about this alot. But try to keep a humble attitude, it's not our fault but the truth is we have a chemical imbalance and it's not our fault, it just is the cards we have been dealt. Life keeps going, and so should we. Most times doing what's the right and best thing is so hard, but possible.

[Moogieotter]

Obviously it's classic bipolar to wonder about and try to get off meds. As I have just passed 2 years full med compliance and nearly a year of amazing stability, I feel the game starting in my head. What's next? I have a quarterly pdoc check in w no changes needed in a few weeks. I ask myself and wonder about long term damage and life expectancy issues from years and decades of meds. I have to stop these thoughts or at least have a chuckle at them and realize it is all part of the experience. Acceptance is hard, but powerful and necessary w bipolar and addiction recovery. Thanks aged for letting me share.

moogs

[Crazy Hitch]

I've gone off meds in the past and unfortunately it never ever ended well for me.

Just when I thought I was "fine" - turns out I was / am far from it.

Hope this all works out for you.

Take care.

[aged2324]

Thanks you all...it's helpful to know that others struggle with this issue

[Blitter2014]

For many meds are no different to taking food, eat and live, don't eat......

Its taken me quite a few years to come to terms with HAVING to take medication, but I think being able to honestly reflect on the past helps realize what you need to do to have a successful future. Don't beat yourself up, a lot of people take medications for a lot of different conditions. It doesn't reflect poorly on you, it just means your body needs things that you can't get through a normal diet