[fingers1]

Hello everyone !
Whenever I was hypermanic I would get comments from others saying that I was overly competitive, some people it seems just don't like others who do things better than them.
I have tried to explain that I am not trying to have a competition with them
and it is just my way of doing things.
I was not self aware at the time that I was suffering from hypomania.
Its not my fault that I am good at things when hypomanic where I am able to hyperfocus.
Sadly and to the relief of others im sureI have not had this problem for the past ten years after being put on Olanzapine.

I miss those times when I was fired up and ready to go.
My employers loved me !

anyone else experienced this ?

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[Zippo]

Sometimes I look back on my long, lost days of exuberance and I think how long it's been since I've been keen about anything. I got drugged out of it. Apparently exuberance is bad. I rarely get out of the depression, but now the exuberance and creativity are dead so I don't even have those windows of hope anymore. I'm not sure I like the trade off.