[ozzy1313]

I want to die, but I can't. My husband and kids need me. My parents and brother need me. But I don't want to be here at all. Makes me so mad at them and then mad at me for creating this life as a mom and wife. I wish they didn't need me. I just want to not be....but I have to

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[lacerta]

ozzy I'm going through the exact same thing right now, feel sorry for you.

[jon36]

Originally Posted by ozzy1313

I want to die, but I can't. My husband and kids need me. My parents and brother need me. But I don't want to be here at all. Makes me so mad at them and then mad at me for creating this life as a mom and wife. I wish they didn't need me. I just want to not be....but I have to

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Hi, sounds like you understand that loved ones need you so I would say that you don't really want to die. I hope not anyway. I wanted to die when my wife died recently, then shortly after that my mum died of cancer. Then my family couldn't cope with my bipolar so haven't heard from them in 7 years. It gets better, honestly
and I hope you feel more able to cope with life soon.

[ozzy1313]

Lacerta I'm sorry you are suffering as well. Sucks doesn't it

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[violet66]

Same. It takes everything I have to keep pressing on. Hang in there, savor the good moments.

[~Christina]

Ozzy,

Maybe you need an IP stay , Just to help get grounded, maybe make changes in your meds. Identify what your triggers may be that are always keeping you off balance.

Just a thought.

[ozzy1313]

Talked to my pdoc. There are no beds to be had

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[~Christina]

Originally Posted by ozzy1313

Talked to my pdoc. There are no beds to be had

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Maybe not today or tomorrow , But beds open up usually mondays and tuesdays, wednesdays as the people that are in crisis on the weekends are deemed safe enough to be discharged. Just keep asking your Pdoc daily. Be persistant.