Crippling

I don't know how to continue anymore. My depression has gotten the best of me. Usually I go back and forth but lately I'm stuck at the bottom on my tornado. She put in on a med but that doesn't see to be helping. I know most people get knocked out by Seroquil but it's not doing anything for me. I go back to my psych tomorrow but it's like she isn't listening to me when I'm saying I'm doing worse. She doen't seem to care or even achnoledge it. I thought maybe she read my therapists notes but I'm beginning to believe she doesn't. I can to this this for help but honestly it's like I don't exist. I know I've tried the chat rooms but people seem like everyone else in a chat room, they want to talk about sex and all the stuff I don't want to discuss. I feel like I'm getting worse and no one will listen. I have no friends and a very abusive family. The only people I have is my seven year old and boyfriend who doesn't understand my this. I just want some help. Someone to talk to. Someone who understands bipolar and personality disorders. Maybe it'd also help to talk to someone who has extreme anxiety like me. I know we're all different but I try to help others, it's all I do. I never pay attention to myself, I just do what others need because it makes them happy. It would just be nice if someone was out there listening and wiling to talk. Is there anyone even there?

I feel completely alone. I know it shouldn't matter but I've even only received one hug. It's like this whole website is dedicated to helping but no one seems to help me or know what I'm going through. If you read my old posts you should question why I'm still alive. Answer to that question, my son.

I for one am sorry you feel let down by us here,, your not alone,, I have no wise words or great insight but feel free to pm me anytime.. as far as chats they do run kinda wild sometimes,, try emotional support may be a little less racey..

((((zpe263)))) I've been similar to where you are. My 9yo son is who has kept me going. I tend to spend most of my time depressed or irritable. It took me about a year and a half to find a good med combo. It's frustrating, but you just have to be patient and keep trying.

You may need to straight up tell your pdoc that you want to try a different medication if the Seroquel isn't working. Or try increasing it if there is room to up it. Try being very direct and proactive if you don't feel you're being heard. How long have you been taking it? Are you on any other meds? If she truly does not want to listen, maybe try finding a new one who will. A good pdoc will listen to what you have to say.

I know where you're coming from. I'm feeling very similar to what you are right now. And right now the only thing keeping me from going to sleep and not waking up (its all I pray for every night) is my beautiful 15yr old daughter. But I even question myself if I'm even doing her any good a lot of the times. The ONLY people I feel like ever listen are the amazing people here. I have never felt so alone in my life. I've lost all my friends because of my relationship with my boyfriend which is on the rocks. I can't talk to him because anytime I have any problems/issues, he flips it around and makes it something that is bothering HIM, and HE plays the victim.
Keep your chin up. And keep talking to us here. WE are always here for you. {{hugs}}

(((zpe)))

Hang in there.

Thinking of you

It'll be ok just keep your head up.

((((((((hugs)))))))).