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Default Mar 12, 2015 at 07:29 AM
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I don't even know what to say, or where to begin. I'm so effing nervous. And I'm so, so mad that I have to go back into therapy.

But I just stopped back in September. No good-byes, no explanation. I just stopped. I felt fine, and capable, and just plain done with therapy.

I'm kinda overwhelmed now.

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Default Mar 12, 2015 at 08:12 AM
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Therapy can be overwhelming, but since you made the appointment I assume that you think you need it again. I'm sure things will go fine. Is is a different therapist than before? That can be scary, seeing a new one. I get nervous when I see a new t.

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Default Mar 12, 2015 at 12:03 PM
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Velouria

I can understand the feeling of being overwhealmed.

Hang in there.

I am glad you have the appointment.

I do believe that this will serve you well in the long run.
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Therapy can be overwhelming, but since you made the appointment I assume that you think you need it again. I'm sure things will go fine. Is is a different therapist than before? That can be scary, seeing a new one. I get nervous when I see a new t.
Yes, it's a different therapist. I liked her. I was kinda all over the place, but she managed to keep me on track.

My pdoc thinks I need therapy again, my new therapist agreed, by the end of the appointment. It's kinda frustrating, thinking I made progress, and then suddenly whatever disorder I have makes progress.

I felt like crying after I left the appt, though, even though it ended on a positive note.

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I can understand the feeling of being overwhealmed.

Hang in there.

I am glad you have the appointment.

I do believe that this will serve you well in the long run.
Thank you, Hooligan, I appreciate that. I hope it does serve me well. If it works out with her, she and my pdoc will be able to work together, since they're in the same office, which makes my life a lot easier. So I do hope it works out with her.

She takes a psychodynamic approach, which should be interesting.

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Latuda, 40mg -- for the paranoia (delusional type).
Adderall, 40mg XR & 5 mg reg -- for the ADD.
Xanax, .5 mg as needed -- for the anxiety.
Topamax, 50mg -- still figuring this one out.

MDD, but possibly have some form of Bipolar Disorder. Then again, I could be paranoid . . .

Well, at least I still have my sense of humor.
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Default Mar 12, 2015 at 01:55 PM
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I'm glad it went ok. Therapy can be overwhelming.

I DID cry after my first appointment. My T retired. Never did seek out another one. Partially because of cost and partially because I didn't want to start all over with a new one.

It took courage to start it back up. Proud of you ((((velouria))))
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I'm glad it went ok. Therapy can be overwhelming.

I DID cry after my first appointment. My T retired. Never did seek out another one. Partially because of cost and partially because I didn't want to start all over with a new one.

It took courage to start it back up. Proud of you ((((velouria))))
Thank you.

It's definitely overwhelming to start all over again, adjust, get used to a new person, hope that you jibe with each other. And I'm not happy about the cost, either. But, everyone seems to agree it's necessary.

It's funny. Some don't want to take meds. I'm fine with taking meds, but I'm not fine with weekly therapy.

I dunno, maybe I'm afraid. I used to never be afraid of facing things about myself before, or even starting with new therapists. This time it feels totally different, and I don't know why.

Thank you again. (((Scatterbrained)))

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Cymbalta, 60mg -- for the depression.
Latuda, 40mg -- for the paranoia (delusional type).
Adderall, 40mg XR & 5 mg reg -- for the ADD.
Xanax, .5 mg as needed -- for the anxiety.
Topamax, 50mg -- still figuring this one out.

MDD, but possibly have some form of Bipolar Disorder. Then again, I could be paranoid . . .

Well, at least I still have my sense of humor.
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Default Mar 13, 2015 at 05:48 PM
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You can't have a setback if you haven't made progress! That means you've made progress! Setbacks ARE going to be part of life for us. It's just built into the scene. I guess the question is what the triggers are that push us into setbacks. Go easy on yourself. Everyone does that back-forth cha-cha.

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Default Mar 13, 2015 at 07:06 PM
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When I saw the T in my pdoc's office it was great as she was an advocate for me.. it really gave me a voice with the doc....but she could only see me during day and work started riding me over missing so much,, hopefully they will work together for you and make this time very constructive....good luck, best wishes.....

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Default Mar 13, 2015 at 10:32 PM
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You can't have a setback if you haven't made progress! That means you've made progress! Setbacks ARE going to be part of life for us. It's just built into the scene. I guess the question is what the triggers are that push us into setbacks. Go easy on yourself. Everyone does that back-forth cha-cha.
Aww, thank you for that perspective! That's a very good way to look at it.

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Cymbalta, 60mg -- for the depression.
Latuda, 40mg -- for the paranoia (delusional type).
Adderall, 40mg XR & 5 mg reg -- for the ADD.
Xanax, .5 mg as needed -- for the anxiety.
Topamax, 50mg -- still figuring this one out.

MDD, but possibly have some form of Bipolar Disorder. Then again, I could be paranoid . . .

Well, at least I still have my sense of humor.
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When I saw the T in my pdoc's office it was great as she was an advocate for me.. it really gave me a voice with the doc....but she could only see me during day and work started riding me over missing so much,, hopefully they will work together for you and make this time very constructive....good luck, best wishes.....
I wish you could find a solution to that. (((Wiretwister)))

Thank you. I'm hoping they can work together. I just have to be sure to not leave things out, and have to remember things.

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Cymbalta, 60mg -- for the depression.
Latuda, 40mg -- for the paranoia (delusional type).
Adderall, 40mg XR & 5 mg reg -- for the ADD.
Xanax, .5 mg as needed -- for the anxiety.
Topamax, 50mg -- still figuring this one out.

MDD, but possibly have some form of Bipolar Disorder. Then again, I could be paranoid . . .

Well, at least I still have my sense of humor.
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Hope things go well with your new t!!!
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Hope things go well with your new t!!!
Thank you! (((HALLIEBETH)))

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Cymbalta, 60mg -- for the depression.
Latuda, 40mg -- for the paranoia (delusional type).
Adderall, 40mg XR & 5 mg reg -- for the ADD.
Xanax, .5 mg as needed -- for the anxiety.
Topamax, 50mg -- still figuring this one out.

MDD, but possibly have some form of Bipolar Disorder. Then again, I could be paranoid . . .

Well, at least I still have my sense of humor.
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I just have to be sure to not leave things out, and have to remember things.
make your self an outline of points to keep you on track.....

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make your self an outline of points to keep you on track.....
Right, yes! I will do that.

Thank you!

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Cymbalta, 60mg -- for the depression.
Latuda, 40mg -- for the paranoia (delusional type).
Adderall, 40mg XR & 5 mg reg -- for the ADD.
Xanax, .5 mg as needed -- for the anxiety.
Topamax, 50mg -- still figuring this one out.

MDD, but possibly have some form of Bipolar Disorder. Then again, I could be paranoid . . .

Well, at least I still have my sense of humor.
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