[AngstyLady]

OK, for a while now I've suspected that I might have it- my BF definitely does and is in the process of trying to get some meds for it because he has severe lows that interfere with his studying and make it hard for him to get up in the morning especially. I think I'm ok- I went through a period of melancholy and now am just revved up a lot the past several says- though I don't think I need meds- it's like I'm perfectly energized, without being cranky or impatient, no speed talking or grandiose thoughts-(all are usual symptoms) though if I'm up too late with all this energy of mine, I can get loopy and really stupid silly. I definitely have a shorter span than him, a few to several days of either being more manic or 'low'. I definitely think I have it because I just started my period yesterday (sorry to gross out any guys reading) and have a heavy flow- which normally would make me super fatigued and a bit out of it but Im still as focused and energized as ever. Most of my life I think I've been dealing with dysthymia, and somewhere over the past 5 or so years things have changed- perhaps the brain chemistry was disrupted/permanently damaged from all the years I smoked weed (clean and sober for nearly two years now), who knows. I guess also I have ADD, because I totally forgot where I was going with this. . . .

[krisakira]

lol I like the last part, about having ADD. Haha. I have ADHD and I get the same way. Anyway, it sounds like your energetic mode is a healthy mode and I wouldn't change that. I suspect you will know when or if it gets out of hand. You seem to have good insight. I have schizoaffective bipolar type so I have all the symptoms of bipolar disorder along with my schizophrenia. My "highs" are not THAT high but they are compromising to my overall mental health and functionality. For instance, I might spend too much money or get a pet I will not take care of later on. When I'm hypomanic I don't sleep for very long, maybe 2-4 hours and up for 36 hours. It sounds like your highs are not as bad. Not to compare too much though! Anyway, I would take this time and use it to your advantage. I think bipolar disorder is a spectrum. There is a range of severity. Everyone has highs and lows but for bipolar the highs are TOO high and the lows are TOO low. I'm not sure where I'm going with this either haha my ADHD is fun to have sometimes. Anyway good luck with everything. Yeah thats about it. Bye.

[AngstyLady]

Oh wow, interesting- I haven't been getting much sleep lately either - not on purpose and so I keep expecting to be tired in the morning but once I'm up I'm fine. today it wasn't even hard for me to get up.
More interesting than that (in terms of similarities between the two of us) is that I also was diagnosed as having shizo affective disorder- so maybe that's also coupled with this undiagnosed bipolar. Though if it is, I definitely only have the shizoaffective symptoms when I'm on a low- more sad and anxious fuels those symptoms. Now I'm typing hella fast for no reason and am sorta wired- I hope I still have this energy for work tonight!