[aged2324]

I have been 13 years diagnosed bp and it never made sense. I have spent all those years thinking that the doctors know best but today I have my doubts and have gained weight,been diagnosed diabetic, have ibs symptoms, and don't even think I've ever been manic. My main problem in all these years has been anxiety, fear and sleep deprevation. I have never been truly manic, so I don't know. I am tired of being manipulated by doctors and treated like a guinea pig. I don't know. Tonight I just need to vent...thanks pc

[Wander]

That's a tough position to be in. Have you talked to a pdoc about your suspicions. It is crucial to have the correct diagnosis to know how to treat and manage your illness, if you have one. Anxiety, fear and insomnia are serious stuff too so you want to get help with them. Has your treatment ever helped those symptoms? I feel like a guinea pig at times too and want out of the medication merry-go-round so I get what you are saying there. Hang in there and keep venting here if it helps at all. Wander

[aged2324]

I have talked to my pdoc and I think she may be able to help...I just want to know the truth about alot things and I'm tired, sad and angry that my life boils down to my doctors appointments therapy and aa. I know I need to be grateful but tonight I just don't know and I'm teary eyed and at moments I wish for someone in my life to hold me and other times I just don't know if I can go through another relationship...it scares me...ive been abandon too much and I think that it needs to be me and God for the moment....we'll see. ..thanks for listening