[joyfulgirl79]

Hi, I have posted before about my new diagnosis of bipolar.

I saw a psychiatrist last month and I have an appt on April 9th.

Prior to that, I had been in the ER for suicidal thoughts, and they prescribed me anti depressants.

I stopped taking the anti depressants two weeks ago, because all the racing thoughts were coming back , snippets of songs, obsessions, unable to focus or do anything and I was starting to get the hypersexual urges again, and feeling like I was losing control over my impulses ( all of which has been explained to me as mania)

The psychiatrist I saw prescribed me 12.5 mg of seroquel to sleep, and then upped to 25 mg. I do know that is a very small dose, and it really didn't have much effect after a week.

Was I wrong to stop taking my anti depressants while I wait to see a doctor again? Everything I have read has said that anti depressants can cause mania in bipolar.

I have a doctors appt today with my family doctor, but I'm still all over the place and I don't always get my thoughts across. What do I say to her?

[joyfulgirl79]

all I have done today is pace around my house saying out loud " I can't do this anymore" my mind is completely stuck. I am not suicidal, I want to get better out of the depressions I go through, but I cannot have my mind stuck in these modes where I can't do anything and this has been going on for months now.

I don't even know if I have bipolar or if I am just a flawed person to the point that I can't get it together.

[Victoria'smom]

Tell her why you stopped taking your antidepressant.

[Tigertoo]

I don't think you should ever cut back or stop taking your meds without first consulting with your doctor. Maybe the doctor feel he should up your dosage or switch to another med. The people I know of that stopped taking their meds on their own usually ended up in a worst place.

[gayleggg]

I agree that it is a bad idea to quit meds without your doctor's input, however, since you have already stopped taking them, I would call him asap and let him know what is going on. Don't wait until your appointment.

Best wishes, Gayle
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[Supersonic]

I'd recommend finding a PDoc you can see more often. Mine was requesting I visit every two weeks, after a while it tapered back to once a month unless something (mania) happens. In regards to meds, I was started at 100mg every night for sleep and over time it needed to be raised quite a bit. Stick to orders, but if you question their efficacy call your PDoc and explain. Thinking happy thoughts for you.

[joyfulgirl79]

I saw my family doctor yesterday. I couldn't really tell her what was going on it was too hard to focus for one thing, and again, how do I say when asked how you feel " I spent the morning pacing around my house crying and talking to myself and I went down to the basement so my son couldn't hear" .

She read me the consult from the psychiatrist, and he wants to start me on mood stabilizers when he sees me april 9th.

I live in the maritimes in Canada.....long waits lists to see psychiatrists.

My family doctor spoke to me of taking some time off work and I said I couldn't because I can't afford to ( which is true) and I went into a shift ( I'm a nurse) wandered around for a bit, couldn't focus and then on my first break broke down in sobs, and I had to leave.

This emotional crying all new to me. When depressed I typically lay around and I can certainly hate myself, but this bursting out in tears is all new and it's a daily occurence right n ow.

I don't know. I have an appt with a therapist today and I am still trying to figure out a way to talk about just how bad things are. She is connected to the psychiatrist and works out of his office, maybe they can bump things up, but unlikely.

It's my own fault. I say " well I've been feeling down and sleeping alot " when the answer is really " I haven't gotten off my couch for a week and only got my son to school twice this week and I haven't even showered" ...well, that's not true, I'm getting better at talking about my depression, but it's still hard to describe the racing and obsessing thoughts which is what I need help with right now.

I don't know , things aren't very good right now. I am going to lose my job, and rightly so.