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Apr 23, 2015, 06:18 PM
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How and when (as in age) did it first occur to you that you may be bipolar? Not actually diagnosed, but the inner "wtf?" moment.
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Apr 23, 2015, 07:00 PM
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It never occured to me that I could have Bipolar. I just thought everyone had a racing mind etc .
Age 43 diagnosed... That was my " Well that explains alot " moment. Through Therapy I was showing signs of BP at age 6, but no one would have thought to diagnose a child way back then.
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Apr 23, 2015, 07:11 PM
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A couple of years ago I went from bipolar 2 to bipolar 1 after my first manic episode.
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Apr 23, 2015, 07:33 PM
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I think I knew when I was 21 but I was too afraid of it and so I went back to college from a summer as a camp counselor that I remember as being full of constant laughs, flirting (not my usual style) with the wrong guy who was flirting back and then sleeping with several other people on staff, being willing to go way too far to be funny and thinking I was outgoing and so much fun when I know now I was really agitated and annoying. I barely slept all summer and took the kids who didn't sleep or who had middle of the night medical needs (it was a camp for kids with special needs) because I was awake anyway. It was probably the happiest 4 months of my life but not my best overall. I went back to my therapist having cycled back to depressed and downplayed it a great deal so I wouldn't be diagnosed. 3 years later my psychiatrist died and his replacement met me and within minutes suggested I was bipolar. I walked out. Even though I was about 2 months from a master's in a psych-related field and had an undergrad degree in psych I didn't know that it was possible to have bipolar and function well. In 2001-2002 I was just a mess, trying every antidepressant on the market (great for making my bipolar worse) and finally was started on lithium for SI. That and a new therapist made my ups and downs more obvious and so I started reading online and after a few weeks just asked "I'm bipolar, aren't I?". Since I had with me 2 kittens I had just adopted, one more than intended but my mania won out and then I didn't have time to drop them off at home, there was little question. I saw a new psychiatrist who specializes in bipolar a couple months later and it was official. I was 26. I'd had symptoms my whole life.
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Apr 23, 2015, 07:35 PM
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Honestly?
Late 20s. I was in that much denial. Reality? I've had symptoms since the age of 16. It was merely "labelled" as rebellious. |
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Apr 23, 2015, 08:10 PM
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Never thought I had it. Never even crossed my mind until my old doc mentioned it. I don't even know if I really have it or not.
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Apr 23, 2015, 08:22 PM
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Never thought I had it, after being diagnosed I spent 20+ years denying it.
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Apr 23, 2015, 08:25 PM
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I was dx'ed when I was 18 but I fought against it. I thought that I did not have mania as I was never happy so how could I be bipolar? But I didn't know you could have mixed states at the time. I definitely had those. Anyway I didn't even think about it again until I my symptoms returned at 25. I had my first genuine manic episode at that age too. That's what made me think omg....maybe I HAVE had bipolar all this time!!!
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Apr 23, 2015, 08:43 PM
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Apr 23, 2015, 08:52 PM
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I've had symptoms since I was very young, but didn't get diagnosed till age 53. I began to suspect it back when I was in my forties and picked up a copy of Jane Pauley's'book "Skywriting". I read a few pages and thought "I might have that". But at the time, all I knew about bipolar was that it was treated with lithium, and as a nurse I knew I didn't want anything to do with it. So I went undiagnosed for another decade.
Unfortunately things began to unravel as I got into my fifties, and I found my moods going all over the place, costing me jobs and opportunities. Finally my internist said I had something too serious for him to treat and sent me to a psychiatrist, who promptly diagnosed me with bipolar NOS. Two years later I got the BP 1 diagnosis. And the rest, as they say, is history.
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Apr 23, 2015, 09:15 PM
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I had never even heard of BD when I was diagnosed at 15. Once I was diagnosed, I researched it but I didn't believe it. As a rebellious teen, I thought it was cool however and ran with it. I exaggerated my symptoms and sometimes even pretended to be someone I was not. Then, I got better and believed I had been "healed" by the Lord. But, part of me just believed there was nothing wrong in the first place. Then, at 28, I had a psychotic break and could no longer deny the diagnosis.
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Apr 23, 2015, 09:47 PM
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Oh, wanted to add I wasn't "diagnosed" with it until I was 24.
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Apr 23, 2015, 10:17 PM
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Apr 23, 2015, 11:55 PM
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13 or 14. There was discussion about it with a GP when I was 15 or 16, but I wasn't formally diagnosed until I had a manic episode around my 20th birthday.
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Apr 24, 2015, 01:19 AM
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I started having the symptoms during high school. My anger was a lot worse than it is now though, less kicking down doors and broken toes, very promiscuous. Being manic with disposable income, needed to get GED because my depression kept me from doing anything for school.
and after that I moved to the Netherlands and couldn't hold any job because of my emotions and my depression so I thought that I was just sick, but the doctors found nothing after any blood tests, sleep tests, every test pretty much....and then it came to me, maybe it's not physical, but mental? ....and after a bit of a rough period inbetween that led to my diagnosis (I was 24) annnnnnd fast forward a little bit later and here I am.
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