[ChaoticSymphony]

Anyone ever hear of or experience a dulling of your personality due to a antidepressant? In the past antidepressants would cause unpleasant quirks to my personality like speeding thoughts and impulsiveness with all areas of my life. So I would go off them just to get a breather which would last until I would go low again. I recognize that pattern in myself which is why I'm so confused this time.

I was really low over winter and I faithfully took my meds because I was terrified of going back there. It helped me out so much other than weight gain Blah. Lately though it felt like I was too normal, a weird feeling for me. It took away those bursts of happy excitement, spontaneous creativity and my sense of humour. So I went off. Zero physical side effects from coming off but have noticed impulsiveness like taking kids out of school and fast rash decisions. Also a bit of compulsiveness or obsessing about trees and flowers and wanting them all.

Should I be concerned?

[Wander]

Going on and off anti-depressants can do crazy things to us bipolars! Maybe you could talk to your doc about reducing your dose?? A lot of your symptoms do sound med related. It is a concern.Though it is good you are aware of what is going on. Feeling that way is awful. I hope you find a solution where you can not feel so dulled but do not fall into an episode.

[~Christina]

Its easy to feel emotionally snowed under and it wind up being med related , I think that is why its so hard for Bipolars to really want to stay med compliant ( been there done that and bought the tshirts)

I will say something you might want to think about ... Sure most meds are " Take daily" but what many people don't really think about is that "most" meds take time to build up in your system so that you get a benefit .. but once your feeling a benefit and spend a lil time and level out well then a possiblity is to space out your meds every other day or more,, It can keep you up enough yet your not snowed under... Most meds have some helfty half lifes. So there is wiggle room.

My pdoc has always been open to my not being a slave to a medication.... I love him for being open !

Just something that you might want to look into

[ChaoticSymphony]

That sounds awesome Christina. Definitely worth a shot.

My mate is so dull on her antidepressant and many ect sessions but she doesn't see the change I do.

I've been dulled by aps but rarely go high enough on an antidepressant to have that effect. Although at the moment I am not much fun I think it is more due to the slight low than medication but I definitely can see how it can happen