[HALLIEBETH87]

Today I just feel like flushing all my meds and quitting therapy. Things aren't really getting much better and I'm tired of it. Maybe I just just let nature takes it's course.

Not looking for sympathy. Just needed to get this out. I feel like a Guinea pig with all the meds we've tried. I know meds are only half the solution but they haven't helped even that much.

Not trying to be dramatic. Just how I feel.

[gayleggg]

We're hear to listen anytime you feel you need to let things out. I understand how frustrating it can get. Every time I go to the doctor it's either one med up or one down or a new one. Nothing seems to stay consistent. I hope it get better for you soon.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I feel like giving up and just dealing with it on my own.

[avlady]

please don't give up- it took me years to get where i am at this better place now than before, there is hope and i hope you find it. i know what its like to feel like a guinea pig too, but in the end now i am happy about it because the meds worked after all the c#### i've been through. i guess i for now am a success story, i just pray it stays that way, so i take my meds and learned how to take care of myself in the process too.good luck

[mom2trips+1]

I am sorry you are feeling this way. I have been feeling this way, also. Have been taking all my meds as prescribed for several years and going to all kinds of therapy and I feel no better. I am frustrated also. I can't help get your meds right, but just know you are not alone. I haven't stopped all my meds - too afraid to- but I have thought about also.

Hang in there; hopefully the right mix of meds will happen for you soon..

Mom2trips+1

I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling that way. You're not being dramatic at all. It just sounds like you're having a hard time.

I felt like a guinea pig for years before we found something that made me the least bit stable. I wanted to give up so many times and I think that's natural. Even now I worry that I'm not getting any better. Progress smogress, I still can't function properly the way I want to. So I have given into the impulse to stop everything before. It was only then that I could see how miserable I used to be. I go right back to the state of mind that made me desperate for help in the first place. I can't afford to risk going back there. It's such a struggle.

I hope you feel better soon. Keep yourself safe.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Ty for replies.

Feel down today and want to be alone. My t doesn't like it when I do this but I don't want to be with people and have to pretend I'm ok. Today feels like I'm going into depression when I stay in bed away from people. I tried phone coaching but my DBT t never called back. All well. It's so bright and funny outside and I just want to be alone in the dark.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I tried phone coaching and they never called back. I played on my dulcimer and guitar. Nothing is helping. I felt too dead. I cut and still feel dead. M anxious and dead inside.

[Iamalioness]

Halliebeth, I don't have any advice for you, I just want to say how sorry is am that you're in this place. You sound very desperate. Do you think you need to go IP if you're at the point of self-harming? Or could you call a crisis line? I feel for you. I wish there was something I could do for you. Be safe.

[~Christina]

Okay so today blows.... it happens it doesn't mean tomorrow or next week is going to blow also. You just started a new treatment plan.. give it time to help.

please stop cutting .. you said it didn't help so don't cut anymore.. Distract yourself..

You can hang in and give this time, I know you can

[HALLIEBETH87]

I'm ok. Thank you. I'm just gonna go to bed and watch a movie

[raspberrytorte]

I kind of feel like flushing my meds too...

But I'm going to wean. I think I'd end up in the hospital if I just cold turkey-ed everything at once. Don't want to get sick and all that.

Hope you feel better soon.

And don't cut. Who wants those scars.

[~Christina]

Watch a comedy !

[HALLIEBETH87]

I'm watching you've got mail.

[~Christina]

Ahhhhhh cute movie !