[jules77]

I so often go about doing things, even if i do not gain pleasure from them (depression talking), but the moment something feels okay at all, I am stopped. My brain, for some unknown reason, reminds me that i am depressed. that i have bipolar disorder. that i am on medication, that my treatments have failed. this renders me unable to enjoy a fleeting moment of pleasure, as if I had somehow forgotten about all of these things.
i could liken this to a comedown from a drug like a stimulant - your mind is bombarding you with memories and reminders that things are BAD OUT THERE.

anybody else know what I'm talking about? this brain of mine simply won't leave me alone.

[gayleggg]

My brain is constantly racing with thoughts. It's part of the disorder I think. I saps joy from things that should be joyful and adds to anxiety that is already too high. Mine gives me the most trouble when I'm in a mixed state and it really sucks. It's something I've just come to accept.

[Lonlin3zz]

You have paid attention to what your brain is trying to dis-orientate you.

Since you are more aware of your conditions, it will help you for the better, you might want to attempt to recognize any signs that is trying to further spread the negativity in you, and "nip" it in the bud.

That is, aim it right and prevent them from overwhelming your mind.

Sorry if this isn't helping at all. I'm offering an advice based on how I recognized some negative signs in my thoughts and squish it like a bug, that was how I managed to get by for the past few days.

Thank god that you have self awareness about this.