my psychologist asked me if i thought what i was feeling was mania but i dont know i dont know if what i think that word means is what it actually means and i am not sure in general. I often get this weird revved up feeling like i have way to much energy and i cant get it out and when it happens i feel really irritable not happy but i do get angry and i will start randomly singing or talking and i cant stop and i feel like i have to do something and everything seems clearer and i notice everything like all these weird coinsidences and i have all these epiphanies and i feel somsomewhat speical and like i have a speical job to do. And it is hard to concentrate and my mind races and it is hard to explain sometimes i feel like this and very depressed at the same time which is quite confusing to me and very uncomfortable. Does this sound like mania? I really dont know what to think and it is making me very nervous.

[Ripose]

It does not sound like you are manic it sounds more like hypo-manic (a lesser version of mania). Many people find hypo-mania to quite enjoyable and they simply go with the flow while it lasts.

When I get hypo I am far at ease, my sense of humor returns and my wife is happier but it can be mixed with bouts of irritability.

Talk to your pdoc if the hypo-mania is still too much for you.

I do not find this feeling enjoyable at all i find it VERY uncomfortable and i am much more likely to get angry at people when i am like this.

I am also feel more like people want to hurt me at these times and i feel like people are watching me and also like i could do anything and get away with it and i feel like i need to go shopping and there is too much noise i also sometimes when this happens i feel like i could move between dimensions.

Please anyone this is making me really really nervous.

[Edgar's Mom]

I read that there are areas of overlap between mania and hypomania and that in these areas it can be hard to tell. Your first post describes something like my hypomania. Your latter posts sound like it could be mania to me but I don't know... Do you have a psychiatrist?

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I am seeing a psychiatrist as well but i dont see him for about a month.

[Edgar's Mom]

Have you been prescribed medication?

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[Edgar's Mom]

If you think you are manic and you are frightened, you need to call their office and see if they have an emergency appointment or else go to a hospital and have someone evaluate you...

I'm sorry you are going through this. (((((Hug))))))

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Originally Posted by Edgar's Mom

Have you been prescribed medication?

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Yes but my head wont let me take it.

Originally Posted by Edgar's Mom

If you think you are manic and you are frightened, you need to call their office and see if they have an emergency appointment or else go to a hospital and have someone evaluate you...

I'm sorry you are going through this. (((((Hug))))))

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The office is closed and i cant go to the hospital because they will hurt me there.

Anyone what does this sound like ?

Psychosis ?

i always thought mania was any "uncontrollable" or outburst-like feeling... opposite to how you feel when down (like feelings of depression)... like being excitable... from irittability, to talking in ways people may think arent normal... getting overly excited... getting angry because your body gets "excited" energy...

i can usually tell when im in a manic period... i go months and months of some ridiculous behavior... my problem has been reckless driving... a whole lot of insomnia and weird thoughts, like people doing things against me... but the good thing is, im self-aware, and can usually say... ok... let me look at this in the opposite direciton and work to prove to myself why this is not what i should believe in...

mania is just any "super" feeling... chaos... very uppity and everywhere... like a really short fuse.. .youll crack a whip at any moment... but that doesnt mean you'll do it every moment and that sure doesnt mean you cant control it... just hard to do it when you have less support, less confidence in yourself...

[electricbipolargirl]

It sounds like maybe a mixed episode to me, including psychosis. I am so sorry you are having to deal with these horrible thoughts and feelings. Please call your pdoc now and tell them it is an emergency and you need to be seen as soon as possible.

Also, talk to him/her about why you feel you cannot take your meds. That's usually a vital part of treatment and I haven't found anything else that could take its place. Herbs and holistic therapies didn't work for me. Neither did going to a therapist (although you may benefit from a therapist, everyone's different).

I wish you all the best. I have been in your shoes and I know it feels like hell. Take care!

Originally Posted by eden1515

The office is closed and i cant go to the hospital because they will hurt me there.

Paranoia is often a early sign of psychosis.

Thanks everyone I do often feel like I will explode when this happens it is a very hard feeling to explain. I have told them that I can't take medication but I did not say why I am not allowed to tell them that either. I don't think I have ever called either my psychologist or psychiatrist even when I had tried to hurt myself it just isn't something I would do plus I don't think they would do anything if I did anyway. I am supposed to tell my mum if I was feeling unsafe but I would never do that either I think everyone would probably rather I didn't call and bother them.

[Takeshi]

Hi, I just hope that you keep the option open when it comes to talking the truth about yourself to someone IRL.

When I was thinking that there was no help at all that I can reach out to, the world, this very room I'm typing right now was closing in on me very fast. Nobody wants to get there.

Baby steps. Having/feeling less control of our lives doesn't mean it has less worth. From what I've read, I'm pretty sure you know your worth, hang in there.

I do feel like there is no hope and that i am stuck but i cant seem to fix it. I dont know what i am worth though i really dont.

[Edgar's Mom]

Listen...you are worth a lot! There are people here who truly care about you even though they've never met you. I care about you and what happens to you and right now I'm worried.

You need help immediately. I'm not sure what is going on or why you think you can't take your meds, but that needs to be addressed immediately as well.

The hospital is there to help you even if it's scary for you to go. Tell your Mum you feel unsafe because you do... You are telling us that. She needs to know so she can help you.

What you are describing is not safe and you need to get some help. Get your Mum to go to the hospital with you.

Please go do that and let us know how it goes.

((((((((Hug)))))))))

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[Edgar's Mom]

Let her read this thread if that helps.

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[Takeshi]

I believe you're worth something beautiful, you really are. Where you are at now, it is temporary.

I'm looking at this ominous clouds outside of the window, and I half believe that has something to do with me. I've been feeling this heightened sense all the time, your original post touched me. I may have been in the same place as you were yesterday, it's not about fixing it,,let others help you help yourself. I'd like for you to get there soon. I'll be thinking of you.



Edit: I also believe that you can let it pass, I don't mean to confuse you but, the toughest moments on top of another, your time and yourself has an infinite bright possibilities. You must've seen it before. You can get it back. Everyone's heart is worth more than they think they are worth, that's what I think. Just hang in there, then you gonna seize the moment to see things differently, for the better. Not helpful things to say, but please stay, I think I need you to. (I don't know what I'm saying but, everybody gets hurt and we share for whatever reasons. )

Originally Posted by Edgar's Mom

Listen...you are worth a lot! There are people here who truly care about you even though they've never met you. I care about you and what happens to you and right now I'm worried.

You need help immediately. I'm not sure what is going on or why you think you can't take your meds, but that needs to be addressed immediately as well.

The hospital is there to help you even if it's scary for you to go. Tell your Mum you feel unsafe because you do... You are telling us that. She needs to know so she can help you.

What you are describing is not safe and you need to get some help. Get your Mum to go to the hospital with you.

Please go do that and let us know how it goes.

((((((((Hug)))))))))

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i really cant go to the hospital they will hurt me but my mum wouldnt believe me because she thinks they are good and she wouldnt understand because she doesnt know why they will hurt me. why do you say it isnt safe? i am confused.

[Gavinandnikki]

No matter what anyone suggests, in any of your threads, you can never do. Your OCD, your parents, your delusions won't let you.

And you get very angry when this is pointed out to you. And then delete your angry threads.

People are giving you very sound advice and you ignore all of it.

Originally Posted by Takeshi

I believe you're worth something beautiful, you really are. Where you are at now, it is temporary.

I'm looking at this ominous clouds outside of the window, and I half believe that has something to do with me. I've been feeling this heightened sense all the time, your original post touched me. I may have been in the same place as you were yesterday, it's not about fixing it,,let others help you help yourself. I'd like for you to get there soon. I'll be thinking of you.

i noticed your location is in japan こうんにちは！　私は　六年　日本語を　べんきょうしています。　でも、　i am not very good. 今　 べんきょう　を　むずかしいです。