Ruining my own life...

Not having a good day... I went to work this morning and became so distressed about being there that I started to feel really sick and went home. I think it's finally hitting me that I can't do this... I'm only working 3 days a week (16 hours at most) and I can't even handle that. I had a friend tell me I should try to get on disability a few months ago, and now I think she was right. I haven't been able to hold a job for more than a few months in the past two years, and in that time I've been unemployed 3 times for a grand total of 12 months if you add them all up, all because of things like what is happening to me now. I just get too stressed... doesn't matter what kind of job it is, I just can't handle it and it starts ruining my life. I'm so depressed right now because of it...

I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't quit this job and that makes being there even worse. It's like I'm trapped and I can't do anything about it. I think I should try to get disability, but I know that it would take a while, if I'm even approved. I think I'm just going to have to try to deal with everything until then... I just don't really know how anymore.

Just.....((((((hugs)))))))

I'm sorry working is so stressful for you. I know that is a very difficult position to be in.

And, yes, I think it would take considerable time to get through the disability process. That just makes it so much harder, I know.

Since you only work three days out of the week, maybe it would be helpful to focus on the days you have off? I understand how stressful working is. I only have thursdays off, so I try to focus on that day. Hugs.

Outside of the distress, do you even like the job? I feel like that makes the difference to try and work through it, at least for me.