[smallwonderer]

hi all-
I think I am asking for advice here but just wanted to relate my story. I have a high profile job that means a lot of people rely on me - for motivation, for their salaries, etc. I started that job in Nov 2013 and was diagnosed BP1 with hospitalization in Mar-Apr 2014. This job, and being separated from my partner of nearly a decade, living in a new place etc, definitely led to my diagnosis.

It would be normal for me to keep trying at this job until I get a promotion and keep it as a career etc (it's an academic one, I don't want to be too specific). I don't think I would've ever aimed for this job if I had known I was BP1. I would like to keep working even with my diagnosis until retirement, but I feel like a job that doesn't demand 60-80 hrs/week, doesn't have such high expectations would be a better fit. But I also don't know how to leave and find a new career.

Guess I am just looking for advice/support. I know I am not manic right now because I feel miserable, but in order to do my job to motivate and engage people, it's not that great if I am depressed all the time. I don't know how to fake it well when I am down.

Thanks!

[Christopher1990]

That sounds horrible. It must of taken so much time and hard work to lead up to your career, and getting the bp diagnosis after starting your career sounds like a huge blow to the face.

For me, a job that has consistent hours maximum, 40-50 ish is best for me. For now I'm trying to get part-time work. I applied for UPS part-time dock loader and it sounds like I'm going to get the job. I want to work my way up and eventually become a driver. I know this would be best for me, because I operate best in a job where I don't have to think to much and working with my hands, instead of my mind.
I never planned to settle on this type of work, but it might be my best option.

My advice would to be find a job in something you know and are best at. Something that isn't too high demanding and stress-prone. And not as many hours. 70-80 sounds vigorous, and that would be much for anybody.

[Standup2me]

I was in a very high profile, very well paying, senior level job. The paycheque was amazing!
I travelled (which I hate), I worked long hours, plus it meant a 2.5 hour commute each day.
I would come home at the end of the day, curl up in a fetal position and sob for hours
After much soul searching, I quit.
I now work in a different job for about half the pay. I work 8 hours a day, and rarely ever more.
It has made a huge difference in my life. Having to re-do my household budget hurt, but it was worth it