[Curiosity77]

Things have been intense and awesome, and progressively speeding up. I'm in the process of wedding planning - which we decided to do mon with a 6 week time frame. There are reasons for the rush, so that is out of my control. Anyways, it's been a crazy past few days, of telling people, getting rings, figuring out catering, a venue, etc. Plus i'm out of town for work next week and again later in the month, so flying back and forth across the country twice. Plus i'm going to a bunch of shows, and have my stagette, and Halloween too, which is my favorite holiday. So there is so much good stuff, and i'm so excited, and in love. My mind is going so fast, and i know i'm talking a lot, too much, and way to energetic and efficient. I know this is hypomania, but it's been a long time since i've felt like this, and it's awesome. I have a looming anxiety of a future crash, so hoping for a soft landing, and i also don't want to cross over into poor judgement and do something damaging. My trip next week is 4 days with 2 supervisors, one of who is a psychiatrist. So i need to keep myself together. They know i have reason for excitement though. I also don't want to over pathologize myself, because all this exciting stuff would feel great for anyone, but i think it's the hypomania that's been part of setting all these things in motion. Plus i have 3 major presentations to give in October, which is another awesome stressor. I totally feel i am overflowing, high, electric. It's kind of hard to work though, because my mind keeps jumping around, and i find i am mostly having fun with the patients, not talking about their problems as much. But that's good too sometimes, life doesn't have to be so serious, and maybe going for hot chocolate and laughing, or reading poetry is more therapeutic than anything else. The patients seem happy with that. And i can't believe i'm getting married in 6 weeks.

Wow, that was kinda rambling... Thanks for reading! It seems good to share at a time when bipolar is awesome, and not just when it sucks

[Victoria'smom]

Congratulations!!!

[Curiosity77]

Took some zopiclone to sleep, i think that's the most important. I normally stick with quetiapine for sleep, but seemed like i should go with something stronger. Also took a full tab instead of half, so should be asleep by now, but it's not working. My mind has slowed down a bit though. If this continues i could call my pdoc, but would like to avoid that because i don't want to start back on APs, which would be what they want. So ride this out, and focus on sleep.

[Victoria'smom]

Even if you don't sleep lay down.

[Capriciousness]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Even if you don't sleep lay down.

I second this. I read once that even if you can't sleep you should try to be quiet in the dark as much as possible and that it might help somehow in keeping your rhythm.

[Capriciousness]

HEY manic girl/guy! I realized I don't know if you're a girl or a guy. That happens on here sometimes.

Been there Done That!!!

Enjoy the good parts. Stay safe. Prepare for a crash.

Congratulations on getting married.

[Curiosity77]

Thanks folks I got a few hours sleep. My fiance woke up around 3 or 4 to use the washroom, and was surprised and worried that i was awake. I was laying quietly, looking ar my phone. I know screen time is bad when you can't sleep, but i couldn't totally just lie there. But we both fell asleep after that, and i probably got 5 hours, which is good. I'm feeling more calm this morning, but got to get going, because there is so much to do

Congrats on your engagement !

[~Christina]

Congrats on your engagement !