[lovejoy91]

On September 10th, I went to get a second opinion. I explained to him my situation and he declared that I do not have Bipolar Disorder. I have no mental illnesses. He explained that my first doctor should have known when you take Adderall, you are bound to crash (feel depressed or suicidal) no matter what. You can Google "Adderall suicide or Adderall Depression". So, I no longer take any medication for anything. Adderall is legalized speed. My first doctor even asked me if I wanted to get back on Adderall and I looked at him like he was f.ucking crazy. Hell, I even looked him crazy when he diagnosed me with Bipolar Disorder because I don't have mood swings at all.

With that being said, this whole journey of me being misdiagnosed opened my eyes. It touched me. I know what I want to do career-wised. I want to help people with any mental illnesses and give them hope. I notice on here and on other forums that there are people who feel like they will never be fulfilled in life with their disorder. I want to reach out to my community and let them know that you will overcome hardships. Don't give up. The roller coaster ride is almost over. Keep your head. I want to motivate you all.

Yes, I know that this world is so cruel but I want to impact at least one person's life. If I can reach out and touch someone, it would mean so much to me. There are people out here who care about you all. I am destine to do whatever it takes to get our government talking about what we can do to enhance those with mental illnesses' lives. I want to start small and work my way up. Guys, take care! Enjoy this moment that you are alive on this Earth. Take it one day at time.

Cheers!

Lovejoy91

[tigger_57]

Who could ask for more to give their life too ..... congrats on being med free and especially MI free ....

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I was just wondering about you earlier today. So glad that you got good news and that your experience has affected your life in a positive way.

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by tigger_57

Who could ask for more to give their life too ..... congrats on being med free and especially MI free ....

Thank you.

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I was just wondering about you earlier today. So glad that you got good news and that your experience has affected your life in a positive way.

Thank you for thinking about me. I appreciate that. I even informed a member on here about not coming back but I realized that being on here helps me to stay inform and see how you guys are doing. I'm sorry but I forgot the member's name. If she is reading this, she will know.

How are you?

[cakeladie]

If you mean me I am so glad you came back. There are so many different things that PC offers not to mention you do make some nice friends.

Thank you for coming back

[BeyondtheRainbow]

It's best to just not ask how I am right now . There isn't an answer that is shorter than a freak out.

I just wanted to tell you that helping people with mental illness is one of the greatest things you can do. I am an occupational therapist, now disabled, and I worked in a group of nursing homes that housed people who needed long-term care, didn't qualify for the state hospital but were far too ill to live in the community for 3 years. It was probably the most fulfilling work I ever did because making a difference for one of those patients was such a huge victory. Those victories came everywhere I worked but in that particular arena it was more special because sometimes it had been 20 years since someone had bothered much with the patient. I still have nightmares that there are more buildings there filled with patients who have been given up on and that nobody can come and go from those buildings, even staff, so I can't help and yet can't bear the idea of lost people. Not true and the place is good to its' residents but they just don't get much 1:1 interaction. I think that made me feel like I wished I could do more, and that wish is still with me 9 years later.

But really, it's an open and awesome field to work in, no matter what angle you choose. I didn't really choose it so much; I had worked with a few psychiatric patients and on a lot of dementia units and then I suddenly was transferred (b/c the nursing home I was working in decided I was doing drugs b/c of the side effects of my AP; they didn't care that I was willing to do as many drug tests as they wanted, they thought I looked weird) and the first day I was told my first patient was down this hall and well, it took me about 50% of the way to the nurses' station to realize that this was not a dementia unit and it sure wasn't a rehab unit. I freaked and wanted another transfer but 3 weeks later I was loving it and did until my bipolar and my assistants were making me miserable 3 years later and then I left for somewhere closer to home. But I have such happy (and fun) memories of that time in my life.

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by cakeladie

If you mean me I am so glad you came back. There are so many different things that PC offers not to mention you do make some nice friends.

Thank you for coming back

Yes, you, @Cakeladie ! Heeeeeyyyyy! Lol! =P How are you? Thank you for the warm welcoming! Yes, I agree that you make friends on here. In my opinion, it is important to have a support system.

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

It's best to just not ask how I am right now . There isn't an answer that is shorter than a freak out.

I just wanted to tell you that helping people with mental illness is one of the greatest things you can do. I am an occupational therapist, now disabled, and I worked in a group of nursing homes that housed people who needed long-term care, didn't qualify for the state hospital but were far too ill to live in the community for 3 years. It was probably the most fulfilling work I ever did because making a difference for one of those patients was such a huge victory. Those victories came everywhere I worked but in that particular arena it was more special because sometimes it had been 20 years since someone had bothered much with the patient. I still have nightmares that there are more buildings there filled with patients who have been given up on and that nobody can come and go from those buildings, even staff, so I can't help and yet can't bear the idea of lost people. Not true and the place is good to its' residents but they just don't get much 1:1 interaction. I think that made me feel like I wished I could do more, and that wish is still with me 9 years later.

But really, it's an open and awesome field to work in, no matter what angle you choose. I didn't really choose it so much; I had worked with a few psychiatric patients and on a lot of dementia units and then I suddenly was transferred (b/c the nursing home I was working in decided I was doing drugs b/c of the side effects of my AP; they didn't care that I was willing to do as many drug tests as they wanted, they thought I looked weird) and the first day I was told my first patient was down this hall and well, it took me about 50% of the way to the nurses' station to realize that this was not a dementia unit and it sure wasn't a rehab unit. I freaked and wanted another transfer but 3 weeks later I was loving it and did until my bipolar and my assistants were making me miserable 3 years later and then I left for somewhere closer to home. But I have such happy (and fun) memories of that time in my life.

I hope things get better for you, @BeyondtheRainbow! Thank you for sharing with me about your previous career! I find it exciting to be honest. Wouldn't you say it feels great to help others? I just find it relieving to know that there are people who truly care about others and not just helping people because of a paycheck. It just feels nice to help anyone.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I miss my job every day of my life for those reasons. Accepting that I couldn't work anymore was the hardest thing I've ever done and there is still not a day that goes by that I don't remember some patient. It was a privilege to do what I did for as long as I could. I hope that I appreciated that fully while I was living it. I doubt I did.

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I miss my job every day of my life for those reasons. Accepting that I couldn't work anymore was the hardest thing I've ever done and there is still not a day that goes by that I don't remember some patient. It was a privilege to do what I did for as long as I could. I hope that I appreciated that fully while I was living it. I doubt I did.

I'm glad that you were given the opportunity to help others. That is a blessing. I understand having to stop working as you had to take care of yourself.

[Edgar's Mom]

That's wonderful news for you Lovejoy and I'm very happy to hear you don't have to live with this disorder.

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by Edgar's Mom

That's wonderful news for you Lovejoy and I'm very happy to hear you don't have to live with this disorder.

Thank you!

[tipper1492]

PSYCHIATRY on-line states: 69% of Bipolar people are misdiagnosed, or misdiagnosed initially, and 1/3 remain misdiagnosed. WTF That's a lot of misdiagnosing going on, so I can't be surprised you are not. I also wonder about the innocents of these doctors. I know I changed to another after 5 years. Makes you wonder if we are not part of a factory.

Wow, congratulations luv.

This shows how Bipolar Disorder is such a go to disorder....the number of pills that can be prescribed for big pharma, pill pushers and Guinea pigs in the name of $$$.

I hope your pdoc is correct in the DX and that you are okay. If not, you know where we are at!

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by tipper1492

PSYCHIATRY on-line states: 69% of Bipolar people are misdiagnosed, or misdiagnosed initially, and 1/3 remain misdiagnosed. WTF That's a lot of misdiagnosing going on, so I can't be surprised you are not. I also wonder about the innocents of these doctors. I know I changed to another after 5 years. Makes you wonder if we are not part of a factory.

Yes, that is too many misdiagnosed situations occurring. You are making great points here. I hope all is well on your end.

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Wow, congratulations luv.

This shows how Bipolar Disorder is such a go to disorder....the number of pills that can be prescribed for big pharma, pill pushers and Guinea pigs in the name of $$$.

I hope your pdoc is correct in the DX and that you are okay. If not, you know where we are at!

Thank you! You, too, are making great points here. It makes you wonder what these doctors are up to. I'm sure we can all say that we want a doctor who cares about our well-being versus making money off of us.

Also, I want to thank you for the warm welcoming. I hope all is well on your end!