[onyx69000]

hi i have depression and realy bipolar and axiety. been dealing with alot of stress lately. have three girls and two dogs and a hubby. who is wonderful, but works way to much. but has to so we can survive. i guess my reason for writting is to let out a little a steam. had a problem years ago when i was a child with a cousin male cousin. who tried to get too close to me. and recently it has come up again i though my parents pretty much knew everything because when i was 16 the read my diary which had my entire life in it. anyway the cuz wanted to come and visit and see the entire family i have seen him once maybe since i was married. and i'd like to keep it that way. so my parents declined his invite and i told my dad thanks he said you know you and i really need to sit down and talk about this because i don't know the entire story i.e. your version. so after years of thinking they knew but just didn't care know i find out they just realy didn't know. ok denile or stupid i don't know which. but i have to go through all this again and i feel as if i'm being questioned as to the facts. i remember everything he did. all the visits i was so sick inside and feeling and being depressed after each visit for about 2 weeks. i remember one winter i had a nervouse break down and it was just after a visit to the cuz house. i was a wreck stayed inside and hid from everybody even a current boyfriend. so i don't see how they could not know. sorry my point is i dislike him very much. and now i have to relive all this crap again just when i thought it was behind me. any thoughts?

Your writing it here is a first step, secondly drawing the boundaires in your life of not letting him in is the right thing to do. Sitting down and talking with this person I think will only have a bad out come. If he's done what he's done to you, is there anything else in is lifes closet of secrets?? I think I would'nt want to know.................

[Direction]

unless you feel this will benefit you...I agree with Tucker...

[onyx69000]

thanks guys i am feeling stronger about the entire thing. and you know i don't know that i really want to discuss it any further with the family. so thank s for the imput.-onyx