[czarina1984]

I really hate living with medications that are constantly making me sick. In the past month I've gone from stable to full blown manic to depressed and back to stable but exhausted and cranky. That same time period has included a week on bed rest for chest pains trying not to stroke out or have a heart attack because the blood wasn't getting to my heart, lithium toxicity, lost the use of my legs for 4 days, heavily sedated, sleeping only 2 hours a night, and now back to chest pain. I know we are supposed to just keep fighting but honestly I'm over 50 medication changes this year and I am tired of trying. I keep praying for a semi to hit and kill me while driving because I don't want to kill myself. What exactly am I fighting for?

[Pikku Myy]

I truly feel for you couple of years back went thru a whole year where I felt like a guena pig being tested on 7 different med combos. I was sick the entire time, not to mention totally out of balance. Still crawling out of this horrible place. Really hope you find some tiny bit of piece soon