[Tucson]

I want to find out if others with BP can have this problem of mine. There appears to be a type of cycle that lasts several years. I call it cognitive dysfunction, but this may be the wrong term for it. This is where I have allot of trouble remembering what had happened in my past. Large spans of time can be forgotten, not being able to remember them. This can also show up with me unable to remember what I did the previous day, and sometimes that morning. I can have problems recalling simple words that I need to use in a conversation, which can be very frustrating to me. It is as though I have been lobotomized. This can upset me.

Now over the past couple years, I have been getting better. I started to remember words that I can use in the conversation. It is like my vocabulary increased overnight. I can remember specific event in my history. I can then remember what I had already done on a given day, and even the previous day. I now have relatively good recall, and I am using words that I did not know I actually understood. I can easily recall specific events that have happened earlier this year. I have been unable to do this for a very long time until now.

I now am beginning to feel nervous. I feel that one day will come for my newly found abilities to slip away on me, once again leaving me feeling helpless again, and not knowing what the future would bring me. I do not know how long this will last. My environment can be difficult and stressful, yet I am able to function this way with just occasional periods of being self absorbed. This is cognitively speaking the only problem of mine that remains.

Has anyone experienced this type of cycle, one that can sink you into a type of oblivion? I have not had this highly functioning control over my mental faculties in many years.

I still struggle with significant episodes of depression week to week. So my cycle seems to be to a large extent independent of my mood swings. But it does cycle. I have seen evidence on the Internet that this can happen to some people who are Bipolar. Last I heard, research has been started in this area.

What do you think?

Tucson

I forget chunks of time when manic. My p-doc says it is a bipolar thing.