[Angry1541]

So, I have a question that maybe people can relate to, or add to.

A couple weeks ago I had a few days (about a week) where I couldn't sleep, would get a few hours and function surprisingly well at work the next day. Matter of fact I performed really well. Got a lot done, was on in meetings, etc. But didn't really feel manic (granted I take Gaba, Wellbutrin, and Latuda).

Well, the last week or so, I have been:
really zoney.
been very much 'in my head'
cranky
mentally isolate,
getting stuck in my thoughts
unmotivated
feeling a deep lacking in life
only hear about half of what people say to me before I am off on some mental tangent
tired
want to read a lot
feeling unchallenged by life
desire for something more, something deeper

I am sort of thinking maybe this an effect of swing from hypo/manic to depressed and I am in between. Like the loss of more manic state is sitting heavy on me and I am wanting something more maybe because I recently had more and that loss is driving me to isolate and sink into my thoughts.

Anyway, before I become too long winded, what are your thoughts?

[Mountainbard]

Angry I think what you suggest is quite possible. First the meds may have moderated your manic state. What you describe as experiencing the past week or so sounds very much like the onset of depression. Have you contacted your pdoc for a possible med adjustment?

[Angry1541]

I am between pdoc's, my last one bailed into private practice and is not taking any of his patients with him. So I am waiting to get in to see a new doc.

I know each year I get depressed between halloween and the new year.....happened last year, but I wasn't on Latuda last year, so I am thinking it might be keeping from full blown depression and causing me to have this quasi-depression...one again off again type thing.

[Mountainbard]

Sorry to hear that. Hope you can find a new one soon. And it may well be that the Latuda is moderating your depression.

[Pastel Kitten]

I'm sorry that you're feeling low. I agree with Bard - it sounds like the onset of depression. I get the same way after hypomania.

[Treyfrancis21]

I have similar circumstances. I almost always get depressed during December. I just upped my latuda a month ago, and I think I am feeling the same type of thing. The way you described your symptoms is very close to my own. I kinda think it is just a killer depression kept down by the med increase. My dosage went up because last time I saw my pdoc I couldn't shut up and was hypo for a good couple weeks.

[Angry1541]

Yeah, it's kinda odd, cuz I have days where I am completely shut off and then days where I am my 'ab'-normal self. Making jokes and wanting to take care of the house, etc. If this is the case I was depressed most of the summer and into this winter now.....yikes....I think maybe my anti-depressant is only doing so much.

Therapy is SLOOOOWWWW to get results, so back to the new med carousel in the meantime I guess.....yikes.

I'm thinking too this is an early indicator of depression. Of all the items on the list, being unmotivated really stood out to me.