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Jan 04, 2016, 08:11 PM
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I have seen this mom at my sons bball practice and kept thinking to myself I know her. Well today I thought I figured it out and it was a women I was with my last inpatient. I was thinking wow god is giving you a sign. You must talk to her about this!
I went up to her and was like "i know now!" She gave me an odd look. "I know how I know you" She was like Hmmm she was friendly but confused. I stopped myself. Is she playing she dosent know? Then I stopped myself before I blurted out "the hospital! " This was not her. I'm not sure if they even look alike ,she wasn't from my town and just..no. so THAT almost happened and would have sucked at my sons school omg OK survived that. But now I'm worried One of the wierd things that started happening to me when I slowly began to get psychotic was thinking certain ppl were other ppl. Signs of strange thinking. Little cracks in the brain. By the time I had a complete break I was hallucinating every stranger I saw was somebody else in my life (out in public, on tv, kids shows! And they were all out to get me) I haven't slept well (not at all last night) Maybe I'm just being paranoid? Before that break I only noticed all the warnine signs in retrospect but after you have been there.....you can never not Un be there
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Jan 04, 2016, 08:23 PM
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Close call! It could be symptomatic, or it could be nothing. Maybe call your pdoc if you miss much more sleep?
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Jan 04, 2016, 08:32 PM
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Make sure you get enough sleep. That's always the indication of an episode for me. If you can't sleep talk to the pdoc sooner than later.
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Jan 04, 2016, 08:48 PM
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Aw Jacky. Don't freak yourself out. I do the fake recognizing of ppl all over in mania too.
Keep posting, try to get some rest, and maybe get into pdoc for an adjustment? moogs
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Jan 04, 2016, 08:59 PM
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sleep sleep sleep .... you are getting sleepy .... snnnnore ... however you can you need your sleep .... peace my friend ....
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Jan 04, 2016, 09:01 PM
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It's probably nothing but it's good that you do look at past experiences that have led you to a bad episode. Definitely get some sleep, otherwise it makes everything worse! Hugs!
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Jan 04, 2016, 09:36 PM
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Try to regulate your sleep as much as possible. I know how you are feeling right now though.
I didn't take Klonapin for a few days (I ran out and was about to see my pdoc) and I became very paranoid. He blamed the missing meds (which is correct, I'm sure). However, since Monday (last week) I've been taking it regularly and strange things are happening. I got so paranoid that I was about to be arrested that yesterday I almost called the police to find out if there were any warrants or investigations against me. What stopped me? Fear that it would make me more suspicious if I called. While I know this is ridiculous mostly, I can't stop worrying about it. I just feel like I am going to spend the rest of my life in jail. Then today, I was sitting in my group and I felt panicked for no reason. Then I heard a train coming and suddenly I felt the room shaking. I just knew this was a sign that I was going to die by getting hit by a train. Sorry to make this whole response about me I just want to let you know you are not alone. It is scary!
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Jan 04, 2016, 09:52 PM
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Thx everybody!! It feels so so good to get reassurance sometimes. I am sending a huge hug to you all right now!
 Moogs thx! You may not want to say keep posting though because I may post away the wee hours saturating pc with God only knows  Cashart: yes that type of paranoia is crazy. I remember checking my nurses license over and over thinking it was suspended for something I must have done bad. Aye being in the pharmacy and it was like the whole world was wavy like tripping on acid lol and the pharmacist was like 'oh this is a heavy package'...well of course she is as eluding uncover to me in code that what I did was REALLY bad and 25 to life was coming..Aye ir just got worse from there. We need a double date to the pdoc!
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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Jan 04, 2016, 09:59 PM
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I don't know what's up with saying "aye" in my last post
I must have turned into an old Scottish woman in the last hour
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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Jan 04, 2016, 10:08 PM
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I have seen you post all night long before .... bring it on if it helps ...
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Jan 04, 2016, 10:21 PM
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Thx Tigger
We been around about the same amount of time I think and you have always been so supportive even when down yourself 
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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Jan 05, 2016, 06:42 AM
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I agree that you need sleep! My pdoc was just telling me that I need to get on a regular sleep schedule ASAP because it's forcing my cycling to continue. It's not easy to get used to (believe me...I haven't had normal sleep in very many years) but overtime, like any other habit, you won't have to think about it anymore. I hope things go well for you.
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