Being the wierd one

Do you constantly feel like you are the "off" one in a group be it work school social whatever? The reason I think I related to the character in silver linings playbook so much is because of his off beat nature and how others related to him because of it. It dosent matter where I go I am the. ...idk... Wierdo lol
It only bothers me in work situations where ppl are really expected to be normal all the time and you realize how many ppl fit or try to fit "normal," and you can't or won't. Was I sick the day they passed out the guide to being like everybody else or what?
All ye fellow wierdos raise ya hands!

Hello......fellow weirdo here! I've always been a bit of an outsider, even more so now because I'm actively aware of my condition. I try to avoid all situations that will get me in trouble, especially those that concern booze. For me personally, it has been tough because all of my (former) friends are partiers and I don't feel comfortable in those crowds anymore. They don't understand and want the "old me" back - the one who would drink until he passed out in the bushes in the yard. Tomorrow, I'll watch the Superbowl alone........I'll still enjoy my seven-layer dip, however!

As for work, I keep a low profile by putting on my headphones, and listening to something soothing like the Grateful Dead, trying to stay vigilant and not slip into the paranoia and anger that has defined me in the past. My diagnosis has been a blessing in many ways but knowing my condition has led me to some defense mechanisms that most people don't understand (because they don't know I'm BP).

Ya, I am a weirdo. I always thought it was kind of cute. Unique. But was called weird by people off and on all my life.

Positively. All the time. And it's not just a feeling. People have said so right to my face. I don't mind being different -- in many ways I don't even WANT to be like them. But why they feel the need to point it out, that I don't get. About a decade ago, I decided screw it, this is me. Deal with it. It's easier, and besides, the other didn't work anyway.
I've often wondered this too. People know this stuff. How to navigate the social world, interact with others. All I know is that I don't have a copy.

Lmao I don't have a copy either. I'm OK with it but I think

Number 1 what am I doing that makes it so obvious haha

Number 2 sometimes life would be easier if I melted into the pot

But then I think naaaaah
And can't believe the time and energy ppl put in to being a "norm" and the thought of it EXHAUSTS me

Yep. I am definitely different. oops... My bad!

Ever since I was 12 or 13 I've felt different. Like the black sheep of the family or something like that. I've always wondered what was wrong with me growing up and was so frustrated..

Oh yes, I was always the odd one out! Even in preschool I was learning how to read during playtime because I had trouble playing with the other kids. It was painful for most of elementary and middle school because I got teased so much. But in eighth grade I was like **** this and embraced my weirdness and life got better. I stopped caring what my classmates thought of me and focused on my real friends instead. Now as an adult I just don't care at all. I'm told all the time at work that I'm not like everyone else but it's told to me like a compliment. Like I don't get petty and talk about people behind their backs and stuff so my coworker's appreciate it.

I'm cool with it now! What is normal anyway lol?

I know what you mean. In schol I was pretty much ignored except when I played basketball, jv and varsity. I was really good so then I was everyone's best friend. Soon as season was over it went right back to the "norm" being left out of bday parties, I got teased a lot cuz I dressed weird not like everyone else. Its one thing as a kid and another as an adult except for one thing: it still hurts like hell!! As for now I'm not sure I care anymore. Too many other places for my worries to go.

Bi polar 1
Klonipin, lamictal,cymbalta, abilify,neurontin and lithium All this and I'm still bi polar!! Lmao

According to my mom, I used to play alone in the sandbox when I was in either preschool or kindergarten. I guess this started from the beginning.

Oh man I've ALWAYS been the weird one. I have a rather sick sense of humor ever since I was a kid. I've learned to embrace it! I like being different although it can effect relationships, or lack thereof. I often try to be normal and fit in with my surroundings but the freak in me comes out sooner or later lol. I've wondered if my MI has something to do with it. I've been through so much BS that maybe all I can do is find humor in the dark side of things. Quite often I think back on something I did or say and think "wtf?!"

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Ativan 1mg PRN
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Veteran weirdo here too. I was the kid who was about 15 degrees off cool and got teased unmercifully. Now I embrace the weirdness and even take pride in it, and I have a ton of friends and the peace that comes with being myself.

All of that was amazing because so much I can identify with in all of you
I guess it's a good thing we can come here and stick together

Right! This place is the one and ONLY place I can come and say anything and be 100% honest. I've admitted things on here that I won't even tell my best friend. Wait, what best friend? I'm too weird for friends

Trileptal 600mg BID
Buspar 45mg
Seroquel 150-300mg for sleep
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvanse 70mg
Risperdal 4-6mg PRN

I don't get msgs unless the other person using tapatalk app!

I constantly worry that people at work notice that there's something "off" about me. I guess I've always known that Im a pretty weird dude but as an adult I feel more self-conscious about it.