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Why tell me why, everytime there's a family function, a holiday that I look forward to my body/mind comes crashing down. Damn I so sick and tired of letting everyone down, majorly myself. I don't @@#$% pity parties I want a life.
I've been told straight up, Tucker I couldn't count on you for anything.. And today one more time I'm in a hole, wife is home, parties to go to and I can't make it... HUUUG.................... |
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sorry but know how you feel. i feel like i let my kids down for about 1 year. while i was so sick with tn and had to have a hystorectomy the same year. so know how you feel. sorry. she'll get over it.
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Never cared for family functions much myself...sorry someone told you that you can't be counted on...I hope you know that it is an over-generalization...so don't let that lie win....
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Being honest I never did either, but with my parents in there late seventies, the presure is on. They want me to act like some sort of trained seal. I just can't turn off the mask and fake how I feel or look. The cycles I go through are by the hour sometimes.
So drop the baggage and move on? And I'll still be the black cloud in the famiy............. |
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I guess if that is a question...yes...if your family is "toxic" to you being healthy...you are not honoring your parents or family by faking anything or being guilted into being what you are not...
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Tks (((((((((((((((DIRECTION))))))))))))))))))))) |
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Hi Tucker!
Does your family (parents/brothers/sisters know you are Bipolar? If they do & keep relying on you in spite of it...I have to agree w Direction...they are harming you. AVOIDANCE as much as you can. Have you told them the reason you may NOT always be reliable: because you have a condition/illness that controls much of your life: you are trying to cope with it & their support & understanding would really help..and is welcome? Just my thoughts Tucker..sounds like you become anxious BEFORE each get together because you are anticipating a bad outcome? Take care & hold steady! Grace03
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Grace03 Feet on the Ground, Head in the Stars, Hands on the Wheel... |
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Funny you asked that question, my daughter is a er level 1 truama nurse, my sister has her PHD in internal medicine.
Makes me @#$ sick. They, know I'm BP. There to busy in there own little worlds, don't make time for me. I was raised in a Christain home, I'm trying not to bring the walls down, but it's eating me up. 50 yrs old, if I don't call everyday guess who's in the john, ME. They won't pick up a @#$%^& book to look it up, or understand, nope.. Destroy my family for my own sanity, or pull the mask of indission over me again?? |
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