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Please let me know, in your personally experienced BP opinions, what my mood sounds like:

I'm BPII and it's still hard to tell. My first 3 episodes were clear as day, a sharp swing starting with waking up one day feeling absolutely wired and as if I was on drugs.

This year, not sure. I would rate myself a 6 or 7 out of 10, 5 being normal, but I feel as if I am acting normal for the first time.

Maybe I'm used to it? Maybe it has become more gradual and drawn out into more elaborate episodes?
Maybe my other episodes were gradual too but I had less insight?

My only clue is I feel mildly omnipotent, fairly hot headed - but I still wake up tired. That's the thing. Usually I pop out of bed as if I had been drinking coffee in my sleep..

Could be an after effect of smoking though. The tiredness. I've been smoking to chill me out. But still I think my hypo would trump a marijuana after effect when I wake up..

TL;DR - If reading the above text is of no interest to you, please explain if you feel that you now find hypo normal, or if it is more of you gaining insight. For you, is your awareness insight or a comfort place? Intellectual or emotional?

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Oh my mistake - forgot support is only given to sad sob stories.

This place isn't for me I guess. Peace, friends

As you were.

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Originally Posted by hahayeahtotallylol

Oh my mistake - forgot support is only given to sad sob stories.

This place isn't for me I guess. Peace, friends

As you were.

Yes, you have no business here being happy and energetic!

I would enjoy it and of course you might end up depressed and realising it was all a pleasant dream. You can't do much about it other than trying hard to stay humble, I guess. That is a great characteristic whatever your emotional state.

I always try to stay or at least act humble. It's not easy: me being omnipotent and all.

But really, be sure to show some self-pity while being here. You have to always try to fit in and try extremely hard to be normal. Try to see your happiness as an illness. I mean, there is nothing to be happy about!

I also heard taking part in this Traits game everyone is talking about really absolves you of your sins.

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Trying to interpret moods with words is difficult.

I tried to call my up mood a little manic and had people crawling all over me, not getting it.

Marijuana will do something. That's why people smoke. To better handle stress. Or just to take them into another place.

Being tired when it's morning could be your night Meds. Don't know if you have night Meds. I don't smoke pot, so I don't know if maybe you get a pot hangover.

Feeling good is a great relief. If we knew how to be stable our condition wouldn't be so frightening. You know?

I think you could have a priority list. Mine starts with staying out of the hospital.
I can't answer your questions very good, but I do relate to you.
I'm glad you posted. Don't feel you need to have an emergency to talk on PC. Hugs and love.

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Thanks.

Pot only gives me after affect because of wellbutrin. Otherwise I'd be fine. Not on night meds just WB.

moods are so hard to define.. Especially when life for us was glamorous with a side of inconsistency and hypocracy.

Depression and ego over activity have strong positive correlation.

Caught a late train home from work so bought a 40 and smoke a joint with a hobo. Was fuking dope. Literally and it was awesome. They're straight up.

You should befriend your robbers. Then invite them on a boat ride and kick them over board

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Bicycle - lol yeah I blame it on BP.

GUYS... my parents are narcissists. And I'm a lonely, emotionless sob.

Uhm, but yeah I'm BP. I'm very optimistic so don't write me off. Let me help you. Maybe you all can't help me.. But, use me. As a resource. Bend Me over.. I'm a sadomasochist and spend good money to get fuked by famous pro domme

So yeh

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